Demons From Back Then

V1

Momentarily my mind is off temporarily

Brain dead for a moment

So you can hear hell in me

So you can since the jealousy

So you can since the pain without the pleasurie

So you can feel my heart,

Not blocked by my mind's telepathy

I'ma monster

Goin through a stage of early pain

Tryna maintain

So many things stressin out my brain

Like how to get in the game

How do I make a name

Not tryna get up in it and then not go insane

No one truly understands

But I'm held up by a promise that I made to a man

That was the only reason I didn't pull the trigger when the luger was in my hand

Yea if it wasn't for that

I woulda pilled my cap

I was sure that no one wouldn't react

But I was stupid

I was stupid for the thought of self-murder

That would of been the grimiest shit that you ever heard of

Doin my enemies a favor....

Most of your enemies are stranger

Meanin there's niggas plottin secretly on how to hang ya

But I keep prayin to my savior

So many don't want me be major

And out of respect for your hatin,

I'ma keep makin it hator

Ain't it bad when I can feel it before I can see

I been backstabbed before,

That's shit you can trust and believe

So many niggas are here to crush and decieve

And I know who they are

I cut the grass so I can see these snakes from afar

My girl can't understand

We live two different lives

But she still my ride or die

Prolly be one of the three that would cry

If I was wet up

If I was dead stuck

If someone came and left me dead struck

So for that right there I love her,

Though she feels that I'm fed up

Baby I am fed up

But it's not you, It's the shit that's corrupt

Hoes tryna tell me you fake

I just know that's a bluff

I'm tired of these niggas tryna keep me down

Tired of these hoes comin around

Tired of this stress comin from the past

I can see my old demons now

Pac asked me who the hell do I believe in

I pray to God and asked him to relive me of my demons.

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V2

This gotta be some of the realest shit I ever wrote

These gotta be some of the realest words I ever spoke

But this gotta be some of the biggest pain I ever tought

But this is the shit out of me that life has provoked

I was never born to be in the streets

But nobody is

It's certain perdicaments,

That lead to them street kids

But I don't hate the ones that live that life

A soldier dies once, a coward dies twice

Who's tryna die twice ot of this crooked life

Who's tryna have the bad days and that last night

Who's tryna stress over babies, one bad hoe, and a wife

Who wants to worry about the bill collectors collecting that last check

Who wants to worry about not leavin home without the vest.

Who wants to hear that momma cry when that baby dies

Who wants to see grandma when prayin when that boy rides

Who wants to know the cops raidin every time you build a supply

Who wants the world to label you, because you ain't scared to fly

I'm that nigga

Yea I admit I can relate to about all those niggas

If I had to tell God the story

I would tell it for all my niggas

If had to tell the jury

I tell about all those triggas

But I won't forget to tell,

That jail ain't the worst Hell for them niggas.

I'm the monster in the closet

The evil invisible spirit

Brass and Nick are two different niggas

Nick's good, I'm the killer

But I don't kill without since

Only for dollars and shit

I'm drivin by my own means

Number one, to get rich

This is me

Not some nigga that you see on TV

BET ain't got enough shit that could ever censor me.

I'm violent

But I'm Thug Life

Pac named me

The Hate U Give Little Infants, like me,

Fucks Everybody

I could go on forever about how I'm survivin in this weather

I could only talk only for a minute about how I'm makin this cheddar

But I'ma start workin hard on makin that breadder

This is the first step to me makin my life better.