Strangeulation Inspiration!! (fr...

I’m trying my hardest to provide a stable future for my daughter

With this alphabetical slaughter

Staring down the barrel of the sawn off

I would stand in front of any G, who would ever try to bring trouble her way

Hey yoh listen up I got plenty more to say

I’m chasing this hope and glory and confessing as I pray every fucking day

Hope it never has to come to letting that dog become a stray, fuck with my family that’s the only way … your life will be going looking over your shoulder never ever knowing

Death is your destiny and you know it’s coming any day

Yet no matter how hard I try I’m struggling to get by, struggling to be a father,

Don’t want none of y’all to sympathize just want all y’all to realize.

I’m just a person like you, like them. like us. I’m not the devil in disguise

But you don’t believe me, I can see it in your eyes

And I just can’t break through every time I’m close these demons materialize, until you been through what I went through I don’t think u can conceptualize,

My brain starts to fry and my paranoia got no choice but to comply.

That’s why there’s only one person left that I can rely on to be there when I laugh, and to be there when I cry

To be there when I just wana die and I can’t explain why

Oh my god it’s a panic attack and I look to the sky

But all I see is black

My worlds about to crack and my throats about to dry I’m wishing I could have you back

 

Just for one night cause its getting so lonely and I need to see the light

As my anger starts to gather, it’s like a spark plug and my angers the Generator.

I pull myself a mac yeah a little conscious separator, a soul elevator

Always work alone dog no need for no partner

I’m a wolf bitch solitary lifestyle Saves me witnessing a nation with a fake smile

Only work with another cat when it benefits me then I be gone

Just like 1-2-3, following in the footsteps of those before me, hoping to see an improvement,

With dreams of starting a movement an idea that wouldn’t have been born without my involvement

Approaching my eulogy, practicing ingenuity, with my concept being continuity

I just hope when I’m gone someone fucking remembers me

As shady once said my knees are weak, arms are heavy, and the only thing steady in my life is depression, through my mind suffering oppression by them bullies them haters, them pussy ass debaters, demonstrators, non-communicators and wana be dictators

It’s no wonder I found myself takin up a seat in the kush confessional

Lord I’m beat, but I’m still out here trying to be a professional

homie believe me, if you knew my history you would run a fuckin’ mile

Why you think my dark ass is never seen to smile, maybe not never, but it’s been a fuckin while

The first of the sixth 2013, was the first time I remember that smile fully truly beamed seemed

Like I was walking in heaven, instead of living in hell

Now here’s the rest of this story that a brother gota tell,

It’s so lonely inside, in myself is the only place that I can find to confide, behind alternate personas I find myself trying to hide

I try so hard not to but still drag my loved ones along for the ride, I don’t mean to be angry and I never meant to be so snide when you’ve only ever been so kind

But it just seems like our worlds where always destined to collide instead of being able to live side by side,

Covering up feelings, Involved in illegitimate dealings, Evidence I’m concealing

While my flow and bars these cats attempt to be stealing, cast my line now I’m reeling them in

Prepare for the nightmare I’m the harbinger of sin

The conclusion is these fuckers don’t appreciate where I been and what I went through

Well 1-2 1-2 that’s why Im’a be coming at you with this gauge dog you gon’ feel my inner rage,

I ain’t never been on a stage, got these demons at my feet and these angels in my hair, just wish I could scream that I don’t fuckin care, I just don’t give a shit in showing my love to you I miss more than I hit,

All of these insecurities about my impurities, all my regrets and my unpaid debts to society that know one can ever forget never mind forgive me for, to gain your trust again that’s imperative,

 

Spitting in the face of ever motherfucker I meet, feeling on edge as I’m walking down this street

Making you suicidal when I put these words to a beat, your life disappears as the pen hits the sheet

Bitch take a bow before that heaters in your face your momma was misplaced at birth and spaced on crack cocaine, now let me explain, that’s why she drove her own fuckin ass insane

And that's why your little whack ass thinks u can talk so much smack,

And still keep living, and giving people a hard time

Well I could put your lights out for good and it wouldn’t even be a crime

Now I’m becoming tired, and its time your life expired, all your inner ambition hasn't come to fruition you should just retire, cause it’s about to transpire, that your never gon’ make your million

Instead your body gon’ be laying up in that pavilion