Reason For Preceding

I murdered the self for a reason that had me misleading the herd because I'm hurt.

I said before, I'm only finding the dirt.

I said before, I'm lying to be trying the finding, the only way I know to be surviving the work.

Divine intervention, I lost my mind to be finding the prime inner-connection because I forgot how to direct my intention.

So meditation was just the Galactic Federation checking their graphic explanation to what just happened to me in the attack from Satan.

When he had me believing I was actually forsaken and teachers were acting strange when I'd attract the change and remained basically the same age.

I knew what they knew in only a day or two and didn't stop until one day the heart chakra popped and I was shocked that eventually everything I would be mentioning would stop, so I just gave up.

Now I'm only searching for the reason for preceding.