My sad life

you know I can't understand for the life of me,

why this cancer is trying to take my beautiful wife from me.

why this disease is trying to suck my whole life from me,

my whole life it seems like somethings hanging on me spitefully.

people continuously tell us they keep praying for us,

I'm eternally grateful for all that they be saying for us.

but Lord if none of these prayers start to be answered for us,

how can I be sure that you were going to take care of the cancer for us.

I keep hearing to keep the faith and hold on to the truth.

but to tell you the truth both of those are hard to do,

when you're sitting there watching your wife wither away,

into half of the woman that she used to be yesterday.

I'm on my knees now Lord I'm begging you for a miracle,

to take the cancer from her and give it to me in the literal.

there's no reason for her to continue on with this torture.

when I'm ready and willing to take all of this cancer pain for her.

I know its not fair but Lord can I ask you wonder

you tell straight up in the Bible you'll never give us more than

we can handle.

well I'm telling you now her dying I cannot handle.

so pretty please, with sugar on top, tell me how to say it,

put the words in front of my face and tell me how to relay it,

let this happen to me again not her please Lord I beg you,

on my knees till they bleed, I'll lose both of my legs for you,

if you do this littlebittyfavorformeIknowyoucando,

twinkle your nose, wiggle your toes do whatever you gotta do,

but just keep Jodi on this earth with me and my son Michael too.

 

I plea. I plea. Lord please keep Jodi down here with me.

A selfish request I understand this to be.

But without her what am I really here to be. x2

 

Watching my woman of twenty years wither away,

Is like nothing else I could recreate for you or ever say.

The hardest thing on this earth that I have ever done,

And Not one of my people know how I feel. No. not one.

An argument could be made for her mother and father,

but they didn't lose a wife n soulmate, they lost a daughter.

I knew her better than anyone and yes, I include the Lord,

Sometimes with what goes on down here I think he's just bored.

Lookin down on us thinking yeah..... I'll let that happen.

He's so big up there, wish he'd come down prove it with the scrappin.

yeah, I'd fist fight God to re-leave some of this hurt.

I ain't scared, I'm saved when I die in heaven is where I'll work.

But at least fo' I die I'll get one or two on who let this happen,

Honestly I could run this world better, be a better captain.