Slowly Dying

My life feels like it's getting worse everyday

I keep telling myself that's it's gonna be ok

But the pain gets worse every day in every way

It's like everything I do is bad people tell me to end my life then they will be glad

The words they say are driving me mad

There's a knife on the table I will just use that/

 

I'm on my bed all alone

My life's a mess I wish it would reload

The knife is in my hand

I'm just gonna cut my wrist to release my sad

I can't take all this hate and mad

Why is this happening to me

I mean u don't even no my name u just call me she

i get the dirty looks that you give

for that stuff i can ever forgive

u make me feel like i wanna jump of a cliff/

 

u put your pain onto me so i have a double shift

and thats a burden on my soul as long as i exist

I'm gonna get the scissors again to cut my wrist

Cause I can't take this shit

This wasn't written in my script

I can see blood coming out

All I wanna do is scream and shout

But I don't make a sound

Would it be better if I jumped in a lake and drowned?

Cause all u do is push me down

You pound my feelings to the ground

 

I'm slowly dying

Tears are streaming down my cheeks

I can't stop crying

All people do is call me weak

And that I'm a freak

its happening so much im stating to agree

I'm just Gunna leave my life I'm not returning

When I'm at school u just make me feel like I'm drowning/

 

I'm always wearing long sleeves

So they can't see the cuts on my wrists

They will beg me to stop and keep texting please

So I just pull the sleeves down with ease

i cant stop the demons in my head

telling me i'll be better of dead

my lifes a knot thats getting tighter with ever thread/

 

Maybe a knife is not enough

I by I gun and aim it at my gut

I hope this shuts everyone up

I pull the trigger

My life flashed before my eyes, I'm dying quicker

I'm now in peace this new me is no longer weak

this might sound weird but i feel complete

I will still see you cause yr still the person I love

I will be with you everyday

I just couldn't get my life together but hay

Yr still in my Hart and that will never change

I hope u feel the same

 

Baby please don't cry

Just think of me every time u look up in the sky

And then in yr heart I will never die

Don't worry I will be your guardian angel

So just stay faithful

Never grow hateful

Stay the same, yo and that gracefull

I'll guid u through yr life

Try and give u hint on what's right/

Cause one day yr Gunna be someone's bride/

And they will be so lucky to have u by their side

So please don't cry

I'm happiest up here

My emotions are healed

You look so beautiful from up here is unreal

 

dont lame yourself for this

it was just me having a life crisis

i just shaded my feelings from you like a myth

i left life through the exit

i was discontented

on a path that had been misdirected

 

im sorry i went without saying goodbye

but life was chocking me like a necktie

it was like my feet were weighted and i couldn't fly

so i broke the chains and committed suicide

it was that or taking pills i aint been prescribed

baby please don't cry or ask y

 

when u listen to this

i'll already be in heaven where it is bliss

but there is this, i want u to keep having fun

getting drunk and being a pain in the bum thats my last wish

im going now big hugs with a kiss