mutual benefit
• Written by Eraserhead
Eraserhead's Notes
The beat drops at 15 seconds. This is the first rap I've tried writing on this website, so I hope the flow isn't hard to follow. Also this beat is not mine, and I'm taking no credit for it. It's by Dracarys.
I’m out my mind, drinking plastic bottle shit alone.
Girl friend keeps on texting me, I don’t pick up the phone
I wish she’d leave me alone, wish shed leave from here and go
Cause this is not love this is mutual convenience
to satisfy our needs and not deal with our demons
I tell her she’s my baby , while I hear my doubt breathing
I try hush the chatter during times that we’re not speaking
A voice says let her go but, I always start fight it,
can’t ignore it anymore, can’t make the whispers quiet
I get lost in my mind, wasn’t focused on my driving
Start Slidin out the lane I almost hit some bastard cycling
The problem is without her I know what my real life is
my decisions turned my life to solitary type confinement
In my childhood bedroom sipping grown man liquid
Poison slows my brain and nullifies the mental sickness
She texts me again asking when I’m going to visit
I reply this Friday after 40-50 minutes
She says that I don’t have to if I don’t want to
She says I don’t have to if I don’t want to….
But I know Shes testing me,
In under 20 seconds my reply is on her message screen
“Yeah baby of course I do.” and she feigns excitement
Baby I know you're lying and you don't have to hide it
You just wanted me to get relief from your husband
you’re crazy sexy cool and I was hoping we’d be thrusting
now we're 8 months in, I still think you're a boss girl
But when I try to talk to you I’m absolutely lost girl.
And When I try to speak you retreat into your thoughts girl
do you really want me on this sailing blue dot girl?
I should leave, I shoulda left, but screw it I’m not leavin’
I wrap my arms around you and I feel your heart sequence
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Eraserhead
Member since September 8 2015