A Reason

Looking at his height, didn't expect him to stand so tall,

living a baller's life with no interest to ball.

Not making any sense yet, talking drugs cash and sex,

media had him convinced that we were up next,

selling lies having us hypnotized on chasing lies,

we try 'n try 'til we tire just to jump between them thighs,

looking forward to the sky forgetting what we left behind,

we try 'n try 'til we tire just to get caught in more lies,

money's the devil in disguise and until you realize

you tried 'n tried now ya tired it's time to say bye bye.

Goodbye to those dreams and memories,

the drinks we drank to the puke in the sink,

but its still sad to see such an advantage received,

simply off of one man's tragedy.

 

[HOOK]

But I got to find a reason,

UGH, a reason for my sins,

UGH, a reason to believe,

UGH, a reason for being... UGH

(For being me)

 

Don't judge a killer based on what he's holding,

no education yet so formally spoken,

on that very first day fights were broken,

not paying attention to the monster we have woken.

Second day reminiscing, fucking wishful thinking,

fucking had us all sipping, phone ain't ringing,

mom's still sleeping, just means another event then,

one bottle on top the throttle history's being written.

Intrigued by the thinking had me dreaming of living.

Goddamn it, who woulda saw this coming,

intrigue was in affection who'll fall underneath the schemes.

Goddamn it, wish their was another option.

Cuz its so sad to see such an advantage received,

simply off of one man's tragedy.

 

[HOOK]

But I got to find a reason,

UGH, a reason for my sins,

UGH, a reason to believe,

UGH, a reason for being... UGH

(For being me)

 

People's Creek, what happened, time to put this plan on fleek,

who's creeping behind me throwing me in the back seat.

Fuck trying to remember fucker its time to forget,

this all too familiar, mo'fucker passed me his grip,

like "white shirt red cap," this shit done escalated fast,

the street lights flash, "end this shit 'n we'll decide whats next."

Sweat drip, reds on the grip, past the strip, y'know what to do,

can't we fix this, I mean shit, let it rip, he has no clue.

Times need to change, might as well accept it like ya name,

pistol leaning off the frame, only one will hear the bang,

engine revving in the street, man's gasping on the concrete

one-eighty back to the Creek, the world's staring at me.

Looking for fresh air, bust another three over there,

who woulda fucking dared, friendships, who ever fucking cared.

 

[BRIDGEx2]

My God I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish there could of been some other way

In the ground you'll be the one to catch these tears

And thats why I need you to hear.

 

[HOOK]

But I got to find a reason,

UGH, a reason for my sins,

UGH, a reason to believe,

UGH, a reason for being... UGH

(For being me)

 

[OUTRO]

And I've found a reason to show,

A side of me you didn't know,

The reason for all that I do.

And that reason was you.

Still its sad to see such advantage received,

Simply off of one man's tragedy.