Discouraged

Caught in the rain, my mind I'm losing,

The lyrics I write won't stop the bruising,

All you mock me,so I've cropped myself in this puzzling world so you'll stop abusing.

Angelic wisdom ,no luck, I'm stuck,

A delicate mind, that you disrupt!

I didn't know where my front side was,

so I'm towed by the back, my life I should chuck.

Your insolvency ruined my ambitions,

To bring me into hell-bound was your mission.

But you've drove to far, now you've burnt the emissions,

vehemence ruptured; then the lightning struck!

You look right through me, like cellophane

fooling my name, my thoughts are plain,

the endurance I've had is not the same,

Now I'm isolated in this picture frame.

But the stairs defy me, I'll take the steps,

Russian roulette, You're the one to threat,

The gun at my head; as I start to sweat,

and my thoughts disperse and disconnect.

But a bruise ain't a scar, it'll suddenly heal,

My life's like cards that I vividly deal,

Shock and Awe, that's what you do to me,

your the ones I'll hunt down and viciously kill!

I got my bro's, Luthor and E-manic,

We write bars so fire, we call volcanic,

We're like adobe, cos we write words so graphic,

You're just weak, I'll rip you like a piece of fabric.

So I'll sit down home and type and write,

It's a dream so let me do it right,

The page is white, my mind is dark,

Because you all scarred me with a high remark,

Read my raps, then think again,

I only starting rapping to make a friend,

now you trick me to think that rap was just

a part of my life I binned to spend.

But my life's now the payment, I give for debt,

Cos I've wasted it on people who disrespect,

But I wont give up, I wont fail the stairs,

cos I'm one foot away from the final step.

You think its funny, you think it's a trend,

Your only goal was for me to descend,

Why won't you leave us, why do you care?

Was it and order from Satan for you to dare.

So you brag around and tell your group,

"Fuck this guy, he raps in recruit"

So I sit in my room, as my mind turns on mute,

Cos I don't want my mind to find a new route.