in my head

it seems as tho every night starts with the same struggles

my tears puddle and from then its when my fears double

i feel crumbled my legs barley withstand a stumble

will i make it before my hope begins to buckle

i dont know but i know that im headed down fast

trying to latch to the last bit of hope i have

wearing a mask of a smile cause i know i cant

this is not what i planned i keep loosing grasp

trapped in my head is a daily horrible torture

its on the border of teasing pleasure and horror

dont know what to do my mind stuck in the corner

i try and think happy but my thoughts takeover..

then its the same rutine day in and day out..

going on 3 rounds battling the shame clouds

how will i get out im feelin stuck to the ground..

being hit by deep thoughts again and then i drowned

but im okay i swear i promise things are average

dont worry about my heart i have a strong bandage...

i cant make it maybe if i dont loose my grip

but every now and then my heart it starts to drip again...

would you believe me if i said my thoughts are crazy

and every night i have to put up with the same things

dont want to sleep cause my night mares are scary..

just baby come with me so you can see what i see...

would you believe me if i said my thoughts are crazy

and its a normal thing for me to be shaky

38 hours with no sleep doesnt phase me

i hallucinate with daydream monsters chasing me..