In Vain

Yea

you get irritated and start to yell

i get irritated and the place turns into hell

Voices raise to a wail

you get too close n’ hit me, then i try to bail

before the temptation to hit back takes control

huh...then dad gets home

says he’ll kick me out the house if i don’t lower my tone

 

Yea the problem kid that’s how i’m know

This one guy i’ve never met before said he saw the rebellion in me eyes

i ain’t a kid no more so why am i still here trying to compromise

I’ve giving into the pressure, don’t even know which direction it’s from

Beginning to realize that peace in my life will never come

 

Sorry man i know i promised but i’m back on cocaine

cuz i'll do anything to keep my mind of this runaway train

what's the point of living if all life is filled with is pain

with a few bright spots but when those get dark I go blind n’ need a cane

with the light blocked out all i see in the forecast is rain

Yea stormy past stormy present it’s all the same

Just bought a gun and practiced my aim

Imma go kill the source of my problems no more fun and games

need to know for sure who’s the source else i’ll be killing in vain

that’s why i meditate cuz understanding is what you gain

 

Man don’t think i can write this shit any faster

I just get frustrated when i look back and see that high school was a disaster

 

wasting my time on the unimportant things

like Frodo in his journey to destroy the all important ring

I wish i had shown more passion more will more drive

to reach reach some goals in life

but it’s too too late my spirit has lost it’s wings

 

Yea man i know i’m a master at this form of art

I got a bible in hand and a knife in the other

finally figured out which one imma put in my heart

man i finally found the solution for my troubled self

huh...just when you find my body please put the bible back on the shelf