Do You Remember? (Dad pt 3)

Look, do you remember the good times?

Standin' on the porch spitting them good rhymes?

I do, i was 12 maybe 13

Growing up and had to start choosing my actions

And fighting with dad added extra pain to the package

In the passenger seat with him yelling at me

I went a little crazy as these words became 3D

I'm at home trying to focus

As I'm talking to myself saying let it go fuck it

I run to the bathroom repeatedly throwing up in the bucket

Acid in my stomach sounds disgusting doesn't it?

Well it was and it hurt like a mother fucker

And I'm still thinking about hugging my little brother

Time goes by and i start to realize what he said was lies

He didn't mean the actions or words that happened

Some how i really don't know but i knew this would happen

Guilt came over me, now the sun is showing on me

I can't see my reflection i feel like a vampire

Now i know why they didn't have my picture on the wanted flyer

I'm all alone feeling so depressed

I pray to god saying please put my soul at rest

I've done my best in life

I now see that holding grudges doesn't help

And you can't go on in life by yourself

Dad, just know I'm sorry and i forgive you

Do you remember when i said i hated you?

It's haunted me ever since

And it's been on my mental asking why you were crying last night

Could it have been from our past fights?

I'll be honest i started crying as soon as i turned off my light

Do you remember the good times?

When i was younger i was your partner in crime?

I do, i was 2 maybe 3

And its been urging me to ask you that

Cause sometimes you don't remember that stuff

Growing up was a little tuff

But i know you asked before but now I'll tell you some stuff

I've been depressed for a while now

I don't remember when it happened or how

But it did and still goes on

Please forgive me for lying to you

I know you wanted to help but i shut the door and locked it

I know you still carry my baby pictures in your wallet

I want a better life i still want it

I'm an addict I'm not gonna lie about it

But i hope you love this song and if you don't get it then I'll shout it

You've done wrong things but so have i

It's one of the hardest things to see a loved one cry

Usually i wish i would've died that night but now I'm feeling alright

Back is broken but I'm still walkin'

Lauging and talking you're texting and calling but I'm not answering

I'm wandering around the city wondering if you even miss me

My mind is pretty fucked up and for my language excuse me

Sit down and talk about thee... Good times once again

Do you remember?

The good times we had me you mom and Makenzie

Putting up the Christmas tree I'm on your shoulders you're lifting me up

I hang the star, we stand there and watch it

This is my dark hidden seceret this song unlocked it

I'm sorry, Dad