Envy

I'm done chasing white rabbits with two broken legs,

Tryin' to make an omelet with two broken eggs,

Hoping for this girl to twirl around me like an acrobatic moon,

But her back is turned most every afternoon,

 

Wrote so many raps about this bitch, that her dumb ass could make an album,

Wish that I could X her out just like a Malcolm,

Now she's like an ex to me, but every time I see her, it's like ecstasy,

But now the drug is gone, and so's the rest of me.

 

The best of all my work was for emotion and the struggle

Not to make a move or to try to start commotion in the jungle,

Had to lather and apply most every word to me like lotion,

Cause it comes around just like the sun, it's always in a motion,

 

But back to her whom stole my heart, but fucked me up instead,

Touched me to tear me apart, and pretty much fucked up my head,

Try to make connections dead, but she still sees some light in me,

So I keep on hiding out as long as I still got some fight in me,

 

Vitamins won't heal my scars, I'm zoned without the Adderal,

I thought falling in love was bad, but this girl was a badder call,

Looked at me with gleam in her eyes, she said goodbye,

Because she dropped me with a closed fist just to fuck another guy,

 

She had me sucking on her neck and kissing all over her lips,

She had me shoulder next to shoulder with my hands right on her hips,

But she crippled me later like she had dropped a block of cinder,

Cause now all she talks about is her new boyfriend off of Tinder,

 

Now my mind is hindered to no end, talking back like I'm a friend,

But instead of living closer next to her, I'm playing dead,

She texts me while she's with the guy and laying in his bed,

And all I wanted was to be the guy instead.