Drunk He/art

I wish i just could go back in time

to where i didn't screw up my life

All I ever wanted was a peace of mind

Goddamn its just so hard to find

Writers block got me feeling stuck

Need a brain storm lighting still hasn't struck

I just need to get fucked up

Pass the bottle wanna get drunk

I knew that girl was just fools gold

And now it was my heart she stole

I would never be shit I was told

No wonder why my last name Cold

Colder then a eskimo

in 100 degrees below zero

All I have made yearly aint shit compared to what you get in a month

I tried to work it out but I was late for the punch-in

Caught my mama wit my dads bestfriend

I was 8 haven't had shit on a real plate

So now im trying to make a clean slate

I know I have lost quality

Couch locked wit a glock cocked doors locked

Pressured to get a suppressor

I know that would give that bitch pleasure

well im done wit life. Death ill see you tonight

Wonder where I lost the Light?

I don't know maybe I'm thinking too much

But it was the chance to make it

That drove me to Rise above all these other actors

If people hating I don't put it past them

I'm just asking who writes with more Passion?

Was thrown in the Trash Heap stuck at the

Salvation Army Back then

Had a pride like "Yo nothing can Harm Me"

But now I'm way more Humble than I used to be.

All these People talking about me like

"Did you hear Isaac's gonna finally Record"

Well maybe I was lying

Because this Bullshit I can afford

Im not trying to draw Attention to Myself

I'm Just trying Get My Lil Bro Todd a 2 thousand

Dollar Gucci Belt and Get my brother out the Cell

Fuck what they SAY or Tell I'll never back down

Your gonna have to Come Around and Spray the Chopper

But Nothing will Hurt worse than the Fact

And I'll say it Now I didn't have a Father

It would have been Better if I never Met him

Because His Bullshit

Put us in a fostor Home and Led

Christina Lorenz to Injecttions

Now look at the Progression

Tired of The Flexing wasnt really into that

If I got a stack I'd spent it on a tharepy session

To Get my brother off the Smack

And to My mother I'm Not stepping on Cracks

Im not trying to break your back i just was

At a loss for words the day you admitted you

smoked Crack. Like I was Taken Aback

I Really didn't wanna hear the Facts

I just wish my life Could have Been Normal

But I guess The Morals I didn't fuck with

And the whole time I was stuck with the Thought

Of Killing Myself Imagine being Awkward at school

But belevie me if I would have saw myself

I would have punched him and said

"Get the fuck off the Percs and The weed.you

Don't need that shit get a College Degree"

Imagine feeling awkward Everytime you Pass the YMCA

Because you slept outside on that Heating Pad

Just trying to Stay Warm. More Important

I just hate the Fact I was Born

Like in a Depression Kind of Sense

But Humanity itself Got me Tense

They don't understand My beleifs

Why couldn't I have been born

On A Different Planet Because

Where Im at now I don't feel the Advantage

Of Being Human. See I felt Alien To Some

Kinda Fucked up But I stay Up some nights

Thinking to Myself is tonight the night

Where I finally feel what death is Like?

That's a Hard thing to Bite

A Harder thing to Swallow

If I Die will I come back as a Ghost?

Not for Sure because I. Already Feel Hollow

Do you Follow what I'm Trying to say?

Because AnyDay I Could Jump off

The Lax Verison of the Golden Gate

Fuck the Thearapy Fuck what they were trying to say

Making it seem like it was my Fault I was this Way

Guess they didn't know the Chemical imbalence in my Brain

Should have Left me Alone about it

Stead they kept on Poking me I was Out of it

And soon I wonder are they gonna keep poking me?

Even if I was a Dead Body Kirko Bang with

The 12 Gauge. Fuck the Love that shit Hurt

Made me Trip over shit that put me to the Curb

Just Wanna leave This Earth Beam me Up Kirk

Worked Out a Plan to get My Family the Good Life

Guess it ain't gonna Work too Many Strides

And a Damaged Ego. The Pain is Fucking up

My Cerebral. Tbh I think my Heart's gonna give out

Organ Donor. I Hope this shit is for a Good cause

I might just Be Speaker Knockerz with this shit

Turn on the exhaust

Or Succumb to a GunShot Wound Can't save me

losing too much Blood. God shit is trash

I'm ready to die Lord where you at?