I must be dreaming
• Written by KevN
KevN's Notes
It's kind of a rant really, to share my pain and also temporary get rid of it. The content is fictional and not everything in this song has actually happened to me.
The lyrics start at 0:27
Emotional issues has been around for lots of years now.
Wish I could just get a gun and blow my fucking brains out, POW.
Nobody would miss me, I'm just of no use.
Been through about 2 years of abuse.
Verbal and physical abuse has haunted me long.
Nobody seems to understand, they just tell me to be strong.
I've cut myself deeply, watched the blood trickle.
I don't feel pain anymore it's almost like it tickles.
Spilled my own blood, as a cause of my depression.
And I know now, that you may have many questions.
But some things just happen, there's not really an answer.
My thoughts are killing me, it is feeding like cancer.
No one is really true, became victim of slander.
Nobody really knew, they thought it was banter.
Now I don't speak, it's just completely pointless.
They just keep judging, I wish they could all point less.
They keep calling out my name, making fun of it.
They just care about their names, they're real fond of it.
After school they drag me down to the ground.
Knock me out but they don't stop to kick and pound.
They laugh at it and walk away, leave me there sobbing.
Their insides may be fresh, but their minds are rotting.
They keep making fun of me, nobody even cares.
They just come along with them or just stand and stare.
They keep pulling my sleeves up and say I'm weak.
They keep laughing at it, and tell me I'm a freak.
I don't want to live like this, it's fucking useless.
I'm just so confused, I'm fucking clueless.
I didn't do anything, they were the ones to start it.
It's like and addiction to them, beacuse they can't quit.
I just want to die, I can't live with this shit.
I just keep cutting and leave my fucking arms slit.
I just want to know what's real, and stop hearing screaming.
This must be a nightmare, I'm hoping that I'm dreaming.
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KevN
Member since December 19 2014