I hope you know...

I cant think of there

without thinking about you

when I couldn't find a place to hide these feelings,

I wished that you were just a random lover.

But now I know better than to pretend.

 

Even after all this time

when the overwhelming pain has worn off

and the days I spent thinking maybe I've finally moved on

I still end up waking sweaty with haunting dreams

That beg me to go back to the sweet torture of sleep

and let your eyes seize my heart again.

 

Just the other evening I was sitting listening

To the band that you like so much

I thought I was over my childish- you call it obsession,

When the song I never heard before came alive

and took my breath away , just the same as you.

Once the whirlwind of the tunes had passed ,another took over.

I couldn't help but find an altering emotion in them

Couldn't help but listen to their inner meaning

and let my daft brain wander to those exhilarating dreams of you.

 

What was it that they sang , Did I hear it right ?

Felt like they were narrating our story in every line

Captured all that unsaid between us , just picture perfect .

Ten others that they whistled near my ear

and I couldn't help but find ,

Maybe a little, lot of us in them.

 

Sometimes I wonder whether you were the best I ever had

though a slag in my head ,A jewel nevertheless ;

Every phantasms on love has gone weary near another

I guess I'm still busy thinking of you

to be falling for someone new.

 

He tells me I'm a lady who's love is worth fighting for

Though a sweetheart ,he's a mere child seeking the magic of love.

that I can no-longer provide to another.

Now that I replay our conversations

I understand perfectly well.

Why you felt compelled to undermine my feelings

It wasn't an act of mine that led you to feel stifled

But you were already here, where I am now.

Just like she was to you , I hope you know

You were to me not a knight in shinning armor

But my very own pair of propeller wings.

 

Should you ever come across my silly syllables

I hope you know you were my first love,

The kind hat keeps the butterfly warm in her cotton bed

 

What was it that they sang , Did I hear it right ?

Felt like they were narrating our story in every line

Captured all that unsaid between us , just picture perfect .

Ten others, they whistled near my ear

and I couldn't help but find ,

sometimes a little, lot of us in them.

Wondering whether you'd have anything of the sort to tell ?

oh why don't you tell me what you think...

 

Call it Heaven's grace or callous coincidence,

Generally shrugging away from virtual media,

today I find your status update on the very song ,

I spend whole of last night humming to.

 

You tell me we could be dear friends

And maybe now that I perceive your predicament

I can hush this chivalrous locus of feelings ,

Try to focus on the blooming friendship.

Not like it was already tough enough to convince myself

that our time together wasn't a complete fiction.

You create friction in my mind , a flicker of hope

with words like, " I haven't moved on yet".

do I frolic and fuck about the thought of us re-uniting again ?

Or do I just continue my restitute serenade ?

Oh why wont you tell me what you think?

 

P.S : this aint RAP so to speak...Well just a damn confession I suppose XD

Yeah , I'm aware this aint the church XD

Just saying ...a random song maybe ...do I record it? :P