erase my memory

Please god erase theese memories of my past

Need too solve this case of regret but i cant

Be too harsh on me and i drop faith from my hands

Not want me to wonder my mind without a plan

 

Drugs violence crime was all part of my reality

Thug client of mine together we can study

The life and mistakes I have done real tragedy

At night something makes me find my vanity

 

The escape i find is in drugs and the hustle

It will shape my mind big bucks respect from muscle

Always strapped always prepared never afraid

Always crashed always repaired never straight

 

Grew up around problems , it made me who i am

Crew underground shot once hurt but i still stand

Sad but true its more then i can say about dad

Travel through black and blue want to turn time back

 

When my worries was the school bag , would jump on right track

And move back from things that put a target on my back

Perhaps even longer , before my first fight happened

I dont sleep i collapse , creating disorder aint a talent

 

All the money earned cant fill the hole inside

All company cursed ,they left me in clear sight

So i could watch my own demise as i fell down

The anger still lies deep inside preparing meltdown

 

Coke in my nose , blood on my hands and some freinds dead

Dope denied those feelings when time stands still again

Try to leave my house but the cops got me pinned down

Keep my mouth shut since word travels fast in this town

 

Respect by fear from the heaviest dudes around

Might clear the air and make them scared troops around

Them flee like a couple bitches from a bum

Thats just my twisted way of havin fun

 

Manage to make grown men cry and beg for their life

Ask if they know where my money is infront of their wife

I didnt even care since i was walking on clouds

Treating their pride as nothing the thing left are doubts

 

Still thinking about what i did to so many people

My feelings been singled out im trying to be peaceful

But will probably be aggressive until im dead

Wile battling depression inside my head

 

Erase my memory so i can be sober for a minute

Atleast longer then predicted ,know my personality is twisted

Im just trying , im not gifted , im just dying far from cryptic

Help me out before i end up six feet under, i wonder i wonder

 

Can i be treated with amnesia ? please

Doctor do what you can , i risk it with ease

I dont mind if i die aslong as i can stay sober

So tired of getting high and getting a day older

 

Is it to late to die young? Wish it ended before it even begun