Backslide [Prod. By NeVs]

Thought I'd try something that's a little bizarre,

something cosmic, something that is away and far,

something dark and something violent and hard,

something that makes me feel so fucking small,

Here's to the dark nights, empty closets, full of frights,

here's to the loneliest, unholiest, most depressed,

here's to the empty castles, empty hearts and empty bottles,

Here's to the hollow chest, empty breast, I never rest,

 

Tension up, breaking point, shaky fingers, roll another joint,

Grades tanking, God's thanking, mind gone from all the dranking,

Pitiless pain, ultimate fame, life going down the fucking drain,

Filthiest mind, drink till I'm blind, see my life falling so far behind,

Drugs ingrained, in too much pain, tail down cause I feel ashamed,

Broken insides, crash test dummy, going insane without my mommy,

On the tracks, on our backs, horizontal and ready to pass,

Where did I turn? What did I do? What have I really been through?

Where's the end? Who's my friend? What'll be the next thing to rend?

Why am I broke? Why am I a joke? Why did I ever take the first toke?

Shake the blame, brain in flames, snapping under all the strain,

Busting up, will not cry, coming out no matter how hard I try,

Resist the dark, turn off the lights, room looks like I feel inside

Sun is falling, must keep crawling, reach the window and I'm stalling

 

Please stop looking at me, never blinking, what do you see?

Where's the beef? Who's got the reef? Load a bowl, I'm smoking kief,

Won't remember, won't repair, try to retrieve but there's nothing there,

Sunken eyes, slicked back hair, get your life together, time to repair,

Dream of girls, soulmates and flames, getting on my feet again,

Never happens, fiction while lain, put to rest, back in time, never made,

No truth, only farce, put all my thoughts into my arts,

Poor outlet, cultivate hesitation marks, bleak and lonely, kinda stark,

Backward slide, gotta hold my sides, kidneys burning, immolation time,

Gotta pay to ride, empty bank, nothing to spend it on so I'm raining fives,

Desperate move, losing my groove, out of time, gotta make a move,

Never lose, grey matter's bruised, gotta get off the fucking booze,

Guess I'll die, never tried, hit the needle and I'll fucking fly,

Drop some guys, identified, sit in the chair so I'll fucking fry,

Smack in my veins, mask the pain, never doing drugs again,

Three hours late, calling my mains, OD'd, it's a fucking shame,

Won't ever forget, the time he fell, the truth was he was in fucking hell,

Obituary, he was a hollow shell, go to church, listen to the bells,

Family gone, try not to remember, died the last day of December,

Every year, one day of embers, candles out to preserve his memories,