Why you hiding

It's like you fell off the face of the earth/

To cope with the feeling I been mixing the haze and the purp/

I stay alone up in the darkness in my basement It hurts/

Running away from problems instead of me facing em first/

Face in the dirt, you know how them relationships be/

Convinced that you moved on and you found a replacement for me/

I wanna roam and get away from this place an be free/

But if I stay I need you to pray amazing graces for me/

Cus I been sinning, even though my safe haven is heaven/

Remember them nights on my block with razor blades for protection/

We'd meet up at your job, when you had break until seven/

Then we would walk to my crib whole time displayin affection/

And it hurts to spit this shit because it's caving my chest in/

Because you stabbed my back and the knife you used stayed in for seconds/

It's been weeks, maybe months and I'm craving your presence/

And when you left you took my happiness but gave me a lesson/

 

Lately I been doing my thing, smashing chicks/

But even these basic broads notice I been acting passionless/

That's because no other girl has yet to bring me happiness/

But I'm a man I can't pass up smashing vaginal passages/

my momma said you seem depressed/

I been overthinking and drinking, and hoping you'd answer texts/

Emotionless cus I gave you the rest I had left/

So come thru, I know you didn't forget the address/

I've been wondering, fuckin sufferin/

Loved it when you was smotherin, fuckin then light a blunt again/

I know it has to be up in the back of your mind/

I need you back the only thing I'm lackin is time/

Glasses of wine, anything to distract me/

From the fact that I lost love and I might never get it back b/

Actually, I know you wanted to make my dreams reality/

So if you hear this don't second guess, just get back with me/

Girl Im hoping you missin me, thinking of kissing me/

I hope I'm not the only one who's filled up with misery/

Still tryna figure out why you dipped it's a mystery/

Thought we should still be together but I figured she disagree/

I figured she'd disagree/

 

So why you hiding/

Let me take some time to tell you how I been/

Tripping off psilocybin, visiting the astrals/

Seen your physical body went to hug you but I passed you/

My spirit couldn't grasp you, maybe it wasn't meant to be/

But I can't begin to explain how you much you meant to me/

You fucked me up mentally, now your just a memory/

But I know you remember me, Your presence was just heavenly/

Face of a angel, mind was suicidal/

But I saved you cus I seen that you had problems just like I do/

And if I can't reach you lord knows that I'm a try to/

And if it doesn't work out than fuck it this my final goodbye to you/

This is my final goodbye to you/

If I never End up finding you/