no, mama

aint no mercy left in ya eyes

your in the wrong and your asking ME to apologise?

im sick of your lies, mama

im sick of stayin stuck in the drama

you left the house and I take in the marijuana

I was left behind all the time so I made a disguise to hide

and pasted on a fake smile , I used to make sure I was

hard to recognise

I look back now and see how you could have given me a better life

if only you could have been a better wife

instead of stabbing us all in the back with a knife

I had to live a rough lifestyle

I was left to grind the weed

makin my money illegally

had to work hard to give my brother something ta eat

he worked it off tryna feed me too

me and him, hard circumstances we went through

but now he gone

and I was left alone

dependent on my own soul

I wish you didn't find me

you just followed money blindly

you aint never gave a fuck bout you family

and here you are askin me to say sorry?

do you care about the son you lost

the son that said he wished you were ok when he looked up to the stars

im left scarred hard

those scars will remain on my heart

cuz your blade was fuckin sharp

my boy and my brother were the only thing I had

but now my brothers dead

raheel the one who held my hand

not you,

you know my brother, the universe is what he meant to me

but I was left to cry in my palms and stayin on my knees

sayin to god, I wanna leave..PLEASE

don't wanna be here no more

cuz all I can see in my dreams was my brothers blood drippin on the floor

no, mama, I figured im fine without you

if I managed to survive it'd be kind if you just go.

your sorries are fake

I guess ive figured out your game

cuz when you were hit with the linghtnin

you came to me, fightin

don't know how you managed to find me

but I cant risk you leavin me behind again.