Fucked up head space

It's weird, I can't explain it

My words I really don't know where they went

I feel out of it, the strangeness

It's like being awake while fainted?

Pins and needles all over, feel it but it's painless

I'm fully sober yet feeling so reckless

Don't know what I'm saying yet I'm going to release this

Acting on impulse I'm sure I'll come back to something I'm not pleased with

"Hey doc, can't really talk straight so found a way to express it

Thoughts all messed up and what not, so inspect this"

 

Doing a task aimlessly, I just don't feel the same as me

I Guarantee you probably think I'm losing my sanity

Funnily I won't disagree, don't know what I'm feeling mentally or physically

Not to worry though this is not how I usually feel typically

An on off thing didn't ever think it was worth mentioning

Ups and downs are normal, but now I've started questioning

How the fuck am I feeling trapped and detached simultaneously?

Well that's just not possible, oh silly me

Still turned to rap hoping the poetry will set me free

Some structure in this chaos, but wait let me see

I can't even construct sentences to make sense of this

I have obstructed thoughts, I hate this feeling of senselessness

The tension the tenseness, normal me would show aggressiveness

There would be an explosion of emotion but nope I'm emotionless

It's atrocious that nothing can describe this commotion and restlessness

But I'm not here, don't feel the presence or in a full state of conciousness!