Still I Rise
• Written by VZ
They told me life will get better
they told me stormy weather
can't last forever
it's been raining 18 years
at least it's hiding these tears
that are tearing up my dreams
i can't hear my thoughts beyond the screams
coming from my mind saying deaths not far behind
and maybe i'll just stop running
finally take that gun and...
yeah it's dark over here
yeah
it's dreary over here
my life ran by fear
i fear life
maybe I'm tired of holding this knife
pressing it in my thighs
hoping i will realise
that my conscience
is saying no other option
but the throat
tie that noose and choke
but I'm choking back depression
i think i've learned my lesson
you can't swallow
you're own shadow
you can't win
hell's battle
the cards were always stacked
the world's attack
what is strong anyway
what is sunlight anyway
so i take that blood anyway
wipe the stains
hide the pain anyway
i wear that mask everyday
they told me life would get better
they fucking lied
don't they see i fucking tried
don't they see I've died
several times
committed the worse crimes
to myself
cut out my soul
placed it on the shelf
i look in the mirror
I'm transparent
maybe it's because i never had good parents
my dad left and denied me
waited 13 years before he finds me
come to find out he's a rapist
tried to mend regret and escape this
this jail.
he made my mother derail
she train wrecked into a dealer
who beat her
became her healer
with a pipe,
she told me it's all right
with two black eyes and sunken in face
she taught me that depression
is just a phase
that men are all the same
that life is a fucking game
we're destined to lose
no point to choose
because it always ends up the same
one day you're here
then you disappear
and the memory barely remains
barely, she cared barely
one day she was here
then she disappeared
haven't heard from her in four years
i'm running out of tears
and they're my only source of water
was i not a good enough daughter
i look around and i'm talking to the walls
and the sky
God i'd thought you'd hold me when i cry
when i lie at your feet
and lie that i trust you
and lie that i lie
So i take that drink
close my eyes
when will it get better
when will night turn to day
when will i wash away
i'm fading into nothing
praying to something
i can't name
a girl so different but the same
a girl angry but so tame
a girl so broken
a girl who has never spoken
the fate of the girl
is fading
growing to the like the darkness
I'm creating
hell in my step
in my heart
in my breath
hardly breathing
looking at the life I'm leading
not feeling
just bleeding out
this is what life's about
survival
my pitiful archival
glass never half full
just knock it back
after it all still won't crack
knock it back
forget all that
i'm a phoenix from the ashes
asking the devil where my rematch is
fuck all this strife
my soul is the temple
and I'm the God of my life.
though the story goes
i'll decide how it grows
through the highs and the lows
point my eyes to the skies
no matter what
still I rise.
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VZ
Member since March 9 2016