Sorry

This goes out to a very special woman

 

Im sorry never meant to cause this pain

don't now what I hoped to gain

never meant to cause this pain

 

 

Look mom I'm so sorry for all this pain

I'm writing this to explain before i go insane

i know what I've done has left you broken

can't leave this open that aint fair and i swear

i care even though you aren't aware

so pull up a chair make it a pair

i can tell you are unwell, I've put you through hell

so please yell i need you to

this can't continue this talk is past due

i owe it to you, you deserve to know

lets see how this goes time the truth shows

suppose you where screaming for help

but the person you wanted it from never saw your cries

had to put on a disguise just to keep someone happy

after awhile you'd get angry specially if it was your family

the insanity leads to tragedy, i lost my sanity

not putting the blame on you just asking you to see it from my view

hoping for a breakthrough just want you to be happy

don't want things to get nasty why i left home

needed to be alone do this on my own

one day ill put you on a throne where you belong

these games have gone on for way to long

 

Im sorry never meant to cause this pain

don't know what i hoped to gain

never meant to cause this pain

 

 

don't know how you are this strong

been through so much and thats wrong

from my asshole of a dad leaving you to what I've done

how'd you climb that mountain i was so dumb

I've been a bum but know it wasn't you that failed

i did and now our relationship is stained I'm so ashamed

shit im gonna vomit my stomachs in knots

so much guilt has been built only person to blame

I'm here to reclaim the right lane and fix this

i reminisce just wish i could go back

give myself a crack now i have to make a comeback

gonna take awhile but ill make you smile

but meanwhile please don't lose the good memories

this is my final plea mom I'm sorry please forgive me

 

need to get this of my chest my crime was theft

it left us both depressed and stressed

not only did i take the physical but also it was mental

i wasn't gentle i snatched your happiness and peace of mind

what i did left you confined put you in an all around prison

you had to make a decision so you called the ops

and in response i walked out without a doubt

i just want to make you proud this is my only goal

i lost my control now I'm in a fight just hoping it will be alright

your child became a lost child just like peter

now i sit here and wait for my date with the reaper

we both know I'm not ready please help me

maybe one day i can repay hopefully before you're grey

i came to you today all you said was hey

i didn't know what to say and i left with a ripped heart

but life has no restart so lets throw out those cigarettes

its tense right now but lets make a vow

to fix this even though i don't know how

i sit here now like a rock on the bottom of a lake

it was my mistake that caused all this heartbreak