Pessimistic and Optimistic

Stuck in writer's block can't get it off the top

I'm contemplating words to say on the spot

What's the next line gonna say, does it make sense

Like the last line I erased trying to make this

And I hate this feeling

Most of the time, I see the bright white ceiling

Thinking to myself while I lay down in my bed

With my phone in my lap with the words I never said

Got it all in my head

Still wonder why I didn't put it in lead

I wanna say these things but I can't because it won't fit in a verse

No amount of times I rehearse

No amount of times I reword

No amount of times I rework

Can bring me satisfaction with these words that I speak

In the same language that I'm forced to repeat

And it's repetitious process

I got things on my chest, that's right I got stress

I been wonderin', why my head hurts so much

But now I know that I gotta get the words to touch

The hearts of people

The ones I reach out to in this evil

World, the ones I would speak to

The ones that I dare to act peaceful

With, my inspirations

That I talk about with these verbal creations

Other people just say that its words I'm saying

But what I see is a thousand words of praying

Sure I heard I'm amazing

But did she really mean it, I'm just saying

Cause everybody round me actin' fake

They faker than these movies these directors always make

 

I'm ready to move on

Hardened and strong

Oh am I wrong

Just for tryna make a song

Tryna get right, tryna get my act together

So the script ain't written for me, but I can do better

I know my limits so I'm pushin' to extend those

Tired of old games we ain't playin' no nintendos

It's stuck on my mental, this wild ass adventures

Embedded my temple, so I seen the ventures

I'm so far ahead time machines can't catch up

Even if Einstein had them bitches with they ass up

Anomaly, young as the prodigy that became a commodity

Known as Raw, that's why they said I gotta be kiddin' but admittedly

I did for my family, for the love

For the people restin' above

And sure the people restin' below

Cause I'm pretty sure I know some been arrested before

I can carry all my people on my shoulders, I been liftin' the weight for quite a while

They may be as heavy as liftin' up some boulders, but shit, I been carryin' for miles

I got the dedication, I don't really get bored

I got the motivation, so I wanna record

This voice, let the people hear me talk

I'm sure they'll be surprised by the way I walk