this bitch

You ever had someone come in to destroy you?//

Cage you for what feels like years then deploy you?//

Wants you to communicate more to ignore you?//

Sticks you with a knife then tries to restore you?//

 

It's bullshit, chose, its either heads or tails//

It's only one of you, both people cannot prevail,//

Took me a whole year to know, she screwed our trails,//

Fuck stripping or messing with my head use the nails.//

 

She said she had problems, she couldn't feel,//

It's not my deal that you skipped a meal,//

Problems she said was the automobile.//

The problems not the car, its between the seat and the wheel.//

 

Maybe I was wrong, her nonsense was right.//

Wait no, fuck that I'm too proud to not fight.//

Pull the glock outta the holster, a bat and a knife,//

I gotta right, to write whatever I like.//

 

So don't tell me to calm down, I don't need pharmaceuticals,//

I didn't do shit! that ain't blood under my cuticles,//

you stupid dumb bitch, life isn't a musical,//

it's bitches like you, that make it so hard and so beautiful.//

 

eyes wide open but still i cant see

it feels hopeless , was as tough as can be

but you made me worthless and weak with words

loosing my voice , cant speak she was my world

 

when i met you i was out on the cold streets

you made me feel warm , a feeling so unique

That all changed fast , now you made me colder

Couldnt handle that so i sat down for a high speed chat

 

i too am a manic depressive bi polar schizophrenic

adolescent maniac with false dreams called pathetic

but hope and faith in humanity unlike a cavity

i keep afloat despite the gravity holding me down

 

what kind of fuckin clown gives up on the world around?

I'm learning to my smile wide at all the haters tryna have me drown

i was lost but now am found, ill run em outta town

world peace not domination, money is a dominatrix

 

dominatin' in this matrix, all my life i run from facing'

Who i am but who i am, just like you , amazing

I'm balling my eyes out in the back of street

Just falling into depression, just rapping a beat

 

it started as an act , turned it into a fact

this monster used to me my mask now its who i really am

Thanks to this bitch , its hard to understand

from lovely to a world of pain , no wonder i turned out this way