Life Cycle Of Pain

When my momma was In her death bed she told me not to cry

cause she was gone, cry cause she home there I was sitting at

the Throne My Momma's Home In Her Dome Writing A Song , A Song

About Me When I Was 3. Yeah Now I Knew Betta She Was Getting Sick

As Eva , Coming Too Her Death Bed , All I Saw Was Shades Of Red

Dead Meds Under My Pillow . I Wanted Too Be Close To Her But She Was

On Her Last Mellow, 7 Years Later Im In Middle School Thinking Im Cool

Just A Silly Fool Who Knew When Too Continue . * RINGG RINNGG* ,

Thats The School Phone My Teachers Let Me Answer, Soon Too Find

Out That Was The Message I Deny Too Hear And Answer. My Momma In

The Hospital , Looking Old And Sick As Ever I Basically Couldn't Even

Imagine Her. My Sister Bell Saw Her At The Hospital , She Took Photos

Of Her With No Hesitation . It Felt Like A Pistol Doing A Triple Flip Into My

Heart . I Dont Know What I Was Suppose To Do Only If I Knew I'd Blow A

Hole In My Heart Too Leave a Mark To Show Where My Heart Was Hurt

, Confused , Hurt And Abused . After I Herd That News I Was Acting So

Shady , Daily Dissing All My Friends That Was There Till The End And

Never Pretend To Blend In With My Type But Tonight I Had Too Let Go

All Of My Ego Even Doee My Bestfrannds Got Me Till The End . Cause

This Is Just The Life Cycle Of Pain The Main Thing Trying To Go Through

With The Same Game But Ended Up With A Massive Headache That Wont

Break A Big Mistake That I Paid And Prayed That It Was All A Mistake.....

But It Wasnt Cause My Momma Was Now In Heaven .

Now Im Begging , Wrecking Pleading The Lord One More Chance So I

Can See My Constance Again , But He Wont Cause He Needed Her

More Than I Needed Her She's Now My Angel My Guardian Angel Now

Im Grateful And Faithful Not Hateful Cause She Is Gone , Gone Too Her

Real Home The Throne I Sat On And Told My Story That Freed My Body ..

And Sewed Up My Heart . .

Cry Cause Your Home Not Cause Your Gone....