Cody Number 76: "House Fire"
• Written by PublicApology
PublicApology's Notes
The Cody numbered series are a series of raps where the character 'Cody' from the Petrichor Novel, writes through his life.
"House Fire" is his final rap in which he witness his neighbors house burning down
This brought up the questioning of the circumstances of how him and his childhood friend and wife, Emily, came together and their current relationship at the time of witnessing the fire
Our neighbors house is burning down again
Reminds me of the night you were crying for hours on end pressed up against my chest
Too selfish to let go
Too damn scared to be alone and face the fate I was left
The house has a feel to it
Watching it all come down makes me believe it will all be well again
The heat is sweltering
Filled with the kind of radiating guilt you felt inside while your smile is withering
If I was a better man, New York is where you would've stayed
I went ahead and showed up as more than a friend
Should've left it well alone again
Should've stopped when I told false lies and be promisin'
Thought this night scorched the light but you're still smiling
I don't know how but the illuminated ember seems to be listening
Your gaze is glistening
Now whispering
There's something about the whole thing that's keeping you from leaving again
Who am I kidding I can't do this thing
What the hell made me think I was better than him
When he left I was the only option for you
I'm to be blamed for the things you were forced to do
Pain was the only thing brought to you
Then you gave birth to our Mary Sue
So tell me darlin'
Why the hell are tears running through you?
Why the hell are tears running through you?
So tell me darlin'
Why are my tears fucking running through you?
So tell me darlin'
What am I supposed to do
Let's cry alone together
We're both held back by what could've been
If I didn't came in
You're not strong enough to be the one to leave
So you thought you were clever
To hide your tears and fears
I like you
You like me
I love you, I hate us
You love me, You hate us
I love you, I hate us
You love me, You hate us
I love you, I hate us
You love me, You hate us
I love you, I hate us
You love me, You hate us
I love you, nothing can change that
But I just don't know what to do
Maybe we should start saying good morning again
Go back to how it used to be when we slept heart to heart together never letting go
Too damn stupid staying up late
Always regretting it while we hurried to get ourselves set straight
But house fires always have a way
Our neighbors who made it out weren't insured now the have to deal with consequence
Just the other day we were talking about the innocence in being positive
I said " it was better in the opposites
I don't concern myself in politics
But nobody ever listens to the heart's singing "
" Your wife the other day said the same thing
I don't know why but her stares always seem to be reminiscing things
As if she's picturing
Family "
" Maybe that's just how she is, don't think of her any differently "
Who are we kidding, Emily, I'm just not the one for you
After two hospital trips what made you think any different
Somewhere along the line I thought it too
Your smile at our wedding should've been my biggest clue
Our cub was wearing baby shoes
She's life for me and you
So tell me darlin'
What are we supposed to do?
What are we supposed to do?
What are we supposed to do?
What are we supposed to do?
What are we...
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