The Way I Lose Control

VERSE1*

when the beat starts im just lyrically busting

lyrically insane and my head's combusting

all of you hating cos im actually indulging

in rap and lyrics and other crap which im crafting

my parents hate me and anger reached the pinnacle

battling with fists, im still alive its a miracle

bleeding on the floor, my condition is critical

this is the shit that's making me cynical

trying to keep a balance with my studies and my raps

but i need to be respected, not treated like crap

sorry mom and dad but this is my one chance

i cant back down now, i have to try as much as i can

hence starts my journey of struggling to the top

when everyone pulls me down, ill fight till i rot

I'm not an asshole i just don't give a fuck a lot

now its my time to shine since they aint giving me squat

*hook*

this...is the way i lose control

like a maniac on my door

where the beats are so hardcore

and metal clangs on floors

yet i cant pretend to be nice

when my life's as cold as ice

and all i do is wear fake smiles

and hope this would be worthwhile

*VERSE 2*

now...my parents say im an irrelevant lump

screaming orders at me, like im Forrest Gump

but now im revolting and shooting gas like a skunk

these fags cant understand how mad i am

its like a war zone

in front of my family,

the whole house blows

when my dad gets mad at me

and that's just why

my lyrics fly straight at me

im a revolting kid ever since two thousand six

thats when my sis was born, sent me to river styx

cos after that i was a nobody, a dishonored kid

everyone forgot about me, guess i am garbage

but this just provides me a new fresh incentive

to go back and blast more rappers for my advantage

increase my popularity to prove im not banished

show my parents i am useful not a fucking savage

*hook*

this...is the way i lose control

like a maniac on my door

where the beats are so hardcore

and metal clangs on floors

yet i cant pretend to be nice

when my life's as cold as ice

and all i do is wear fake smiles

and hope this would be worthwhile

*VERSE 3*

im not gonna quit, im gonna be persistent

its like an itch which you can not get rid of

why dont we know each other? why are we distant?

fuck you, too late now,this is the most efficient

way for me to show you what i got to suit my rage

the way you treat me and explode straight in my face

screaming "go and make some coffee bitch" like i am your slave

but revenge is best served cold so here's your coffee with hate

this maniac is done with you and your reviles

your orders and your crimes, your dictatorship and your mimes

but this time when i begin to feel sublime

and when my lyrics are first hand it defines who i am,

and who i want to become as i grow up

dont grow on my back and make me one of those choke-ups

But to fight against a parent, that is just hopeless

because all you do is threaten to render me homeless cos

*hook*

this...is the way i lose control

like a maniac on my door

where the beats are so hardcore

and metal clangs on floors

yet i cant pretend to be nice

when my life's as cold as ice

and all i do is wear fake smiles

and hope this would be worthwhile