Still Alone
• Written by KatV
KatV's Notes
I'm not actively suicidal. I'm not self harming either. But I write stories in my songs; I know I'm not the only one who's felt this way. Hoping my pain can help strengthen someone else. Know you're not truly alone, even if you feel that way. Please tell me what you think of this!!!
[HOOK]
This pain has me shuddering
On weak knees see I'm crumpling
Not a soul by my side in the dead of night
I'm fumbling for a light switch, is this right?
Teased in the halls, now I'm alone in my mind
Wake up confused and sad, feel I'm running out of time
No one would care if I died, reoccurring thoughts of suicide
Some days all I can do is cry, let's be real some days I want to die
//Verse 1:
Someone please give me a word of comfort
I'm starving of no human connections, it's a desert
Maybe I'm too awkward, maybe I'm a coward
Maybe that's why all these friendships got murdered
I'm so very tired, so hurt with a heart that's burned
Wish I had friends to give me some comfort
I suffered, I shattered, I'm done giving effort
Who am I kidding? This song won't be heard
I'm down, out for the count lying on the cold ground
Bound up in depression, anxiety wound me up, might breakdown
It's like I'm in a different dimension did I head out of town?
Seems like it cause many act like my memory drowned
I sit all alone, no one really texts my phone for reasons unknown
Maybe I drone, wish I could drive off with only an earphone
I never asked to be left alone, did I have some mean tone?
Can't condone that you left me when pain was all I'd known
[HOOK]
This pain has me shuddering
On weak knees see I'm crumpling
Not a soul by my side in the dead of night
I'm fumbling for a light switch, is this right?
Teased in the halls, now I'm alone in my mind
Wake up confused and sad, feel I'm running out of time
No one would care if I died, reoccurring thoughts of suicide
Some days all I can do is cry, let's be real some days I want to die
//Verse 2:
Here she goes again, the pathetic whiny brat, creepy prat
Loser, loner, dopey just forget it you don't mean Jack!
Live with the rents' till she 30, she deserves a smack
So annoying, doesn't know when she's not wanted don't come back
Can't get real medication, no more therapy I can't take it feeling freaky
Prozac makes me itchy, anxiety meds keep me sleepy
I know they mean well but my family teases me, makes me queasy
They just say I've got problems, too morbid, so I feel creepy, sleazy
Man my spirit feels so alone, I just wish my heart had a home
Wish these negative voices would leave me alone, stop using the microphone
24/7 they drone with their reasons left unknown like they own the throne
But that's God's job, but depression has me in a zombie zone
Can't you see I'm alone? This is all too real
This is how I really feel, this is my reveal
I've had this ordeal for so long I'm bout to keel over
Devil in my ear saying I should kill, kill, kill- myself!
[HOOK]
This pain has me shuddering
On weak knees see I'm crumpling
Not a soul by my side in the dead of night
I'm fumbling for a light switch, is this right?
Teased in the halls, now I'm alone in my mind
Wake up confused and sad, feel I'm running out of time
No one would care if I died, reoccurring thoughts of suicide
Some days all I can do is cry, let's be real some days I want to die
//Outro:
You may think suicide and loneliness is alright, but your life is no sacrifice
Maybe you feel this way night after night, but soon you'll see the light
It's not from your death, but a new dawn, things will start going right
You're not alone in the feelings of despair, someone cares so keep up the fight!
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About the Artist
KatV
Member since September 25 2014