Demons

[Intro]

You think you know me...

Get the fuck out of here...

Nobody knows who the fuck I am....

So if you wanna judge....

Listen

 

[Verse 1]

Do you know what it's like to stay up awake every night,

Tryin' to fight the demons in your head, knowin' you're not alright?

Do you know what it's like to wake up feelin' totally worthless

Hurtin', cryin', givin' up on tryin'

Wishin' that you were dyin'?

Denyin' that you're depressed

Bugged the fuck out from stress

Hopin' for a chance to get yourself outta this mess?

I'm walkin' around the world in a state of fuckin' unrest

Tryin' to do my best to get this beast off of my chest

Feelin' like I'm drownin', flounderin' without a life vest

The weight is draggin' me down and my heart is poundin'

Lungs are screamin', here come the demons to drag me into the depths

What's really fucked up is that these people say I'm blessed

That I've got opportunities even though my life's a wreck

Like I fuckin' four-moved a checkmate playin' chess

They say I've got it figured out and that I've got it made

But these people just can't see all of the pain

I live it every damn day

I mean do you even know what it's like to be called gay?

For everyone around you to call you a faggot?

For even your parents to doubt you cause you don't talk about girls, can't even show them a text

Do you know what it feels like to have your heart pulled out and smashed

By every single girl you liked that you met?

They're all names in my head

I can list them all off like items on a check

Allison, Lorileigh, Keely, Leah, Carolyn

Gwen, Katelyn, Harley, Lindsey

Then Krissy and Lily

The last two were the worst on me

Four months with Krissy did me in with my family

She was 23 and they didn't want her around me

Then I found out she'd lied to me and it fuckin' broke me

Then I met Lily

She is fuckin' perfect, angelic

Precious, I wanna treat her like a relic

But she rejected me twice for some dumbass cocksuckin' bum

And I knew it wasn't right but I still fell in love

And she found out, and I watched our friendship crumble to the ground

I'm just destined to be alone

But I doubt it's somethin' you know

It's like my little ship is sinkin' up to the deck

And the fuckin' water is up to my neck

And that ain't even the worst shit

Do you know what it's like to be singled out cause you're sick?

To be bullied because of it?

For four years it was the same shit

People thought that I was actin', tryin' to get attention

Well guess what you motherfuckers?

I'm comin' back with a vengeance

I don't make empty threats so cover your asses quick

Cause I mean it when I say that I'll fuckin' kill all of you pricks

All of you can suck a dick,

Especially Jordan V

You fuckin' bullied me, picked on me, and then you stole Lily from me

Bet you won't step to me bitch

Cause you know I'll fuck up your shit

I am not the same helpless kid

I once was, fuck that, I'm done

I had no choice but to grow the fuck up

You couldn't act your fuckin' age if I held a gun to your brain

I'm not ashamed to admit that I wish you were fucking dead

When you flipped your car off that bridge I was hoping it was the end

And if I ever see you again I promise I'll fucking kill you for what you did

You tore the thing I wanted most away from me

And it's absolutely fucking destroyed me

I tried three more times after you and her were done

And you fucked her head up so much she wouldn't ever give me shot

And just a month ago she left this place for good

I'll never see her again and it's all your fucking fault

I trace it all back to you, all the shit that I've been through

And I can never forgive you, it's like a betrayal

We were friends once, but now you're my greatest enemy

I wrote a whole album about my relationship with Lily

And it's got a dark fucking tone because of your interference

All you wanted was to fuck her, she dated you out of ignorance

When you left her I was there to pick up the pieces

You just ran away to fuck some herpes-infested hoe, bitch

I'm done talking about you now but rest assured I will come back

I'll take shots at you until the day I die

People ask why I can't just accept the shit and let it go

But they don't know what a fucked up road I follow

So maybe now you'll all see

Nothin' is fuckin' right with me

I'm a disastrous wreck

I'm a monstrous jackass

With the devil inside of me

Just waitin' to steal my soul

So say again that you know me

You've never walked down this road