tellin

What would you be without the fame?

Where would you be without the game?

Who would you be without the flame?

You'd be lame, struggling again

Trying to find stable ground

This ain't no time to mess around

Pick yourself up, you need to be found

People pointing and laughing like you a clown

When you think that your begging to come to an end,

just Remember that the world is round

And most great thing have never been found

Don't worry, the world just hasn't found your town

Cause if they did

They would find a kid

Bursting with fire,

And blowing his lid

Doing it on his own

no one else to pin

If he were to sin

It be only up to him

He needs to understand his life's getting thin

He can't sit there and hang by the rim

His lights getting dim

He likes the dark

In the shadows he begins to grin at the park

Your swimming in his water, and he's the shark

You better not leak, cause he loves eating narks

Walk in the street, I'll run you over with my dart

Step out my car, bend over and rip out your heart

Put it in a bag and put it in the freezer at Walmart

Than come back to hit your grandma with the shopping cart

 

These words I speak

I say them strong not weak

But I seems no matter how hard I fight

The more I fall the further the peak

It's getting dark, theres no more light

Went from clear as day to the darkest sight

Will I find a path and do something productive and right

have honor for my family do things my way?

Do something that's truly great?

You know, i think I just might

My whole life I've lived with fright

Scared of not knowing if I'd turn out alright.

As I sit back and really think

I realize I write the same thing every night

Of how I'm a failure and I'll never survive

Than I get a burst of confidence, than it gets deprived

I'm dead on the floor, I need revived

I'm also a fat Asian kid someone get me some fries!

 

I'll begin to tell you the truth no more lies

I came out a baby crying in my eyes

Had to have heart surgery, that left me a little behind

My parents wishing and just hoping I'd be fine

Praying hoping this baby worked out this time

I should have a brother that would have been mine

But he didn't make it, and as I grew up I felt it was a crime

Something took him away, and in my child hood I was alone all the time

It really sucked

People would say

"Your the only child you get all the stuff!"

Even with everything it wasn't enough

Not having someone my age to relate to I'll tell you, it was tough

My life was rough

And I can't talk to my parents

cause I knew they wouldn't sush

I'd tell them my story and I knew I'd lose their trust

I had to keep my secrets, I knew it was a must

 

Know that u know a little bout my child hood

Let me tell you a bit about how middle school was

It was basically a crazy head buzz

I was a good student got all A's

But that was only in the 7th grade

Than I started getting into trouble with the friends I made

Started out with making teachers blow like a nade

Bring out their anger they would hide in their cave

Got in trouble got, suspended a couple days

After that year began 8th grade

Honestly that was just the same shit different day.

Than came the 9th grade.

Again? It was the Same shit different day.

For some reason I knew my life would be okay

I started playing paintball it gave me something to lay back on

Loved the fresh air and grassy lawn.

Played and couldn't find anything wrong

 

It was fun, and all my friends could play along

We would go out and play all day long

Started using it as a excuse to become laid back

Got into high school became sponsored on my into that

Got hot headed thinking I was the hottest on the map

Now that I look back, I see that I was wack

Senior year, and graduations not on track

I thought paintball would save me from school and all of that

 

That was a mistake now I'm behind

Won't be able to graduate on time

So I begin to think to myself

Do these packets non stop like an assembly line

Or quit school and take the chances on my rhymes

I try to stick to what I want, but I ooze like slime

Is it now or further till I reach my prime?

someone helping I'm losing my mind!

 

 

I don't wanna get too much into my life.

but let me tell you why i live with spite.

I used to have a best friend

we were alright

one night he came over

the next morning he was gone

but i was told i cant talk him no more its done

i was confused, than the door bell rung.

It was the police, thinking in my head what is wrong?

what happend what is going on?

no one would tell me a thing I was lost

with no answers I didn't know who to trust

why would the cops be after us?

After a battle in court i realized it wasn't us.

it was him, he lied to them to save himself

once his own dad confessed to not believing in him

she was the adult so she had to plead

she almost when to prison that's when she told me

"your friend wasn't the friend you seen, he was sick and wrong and mean

I wanted to protect you so I didn't say a thing

you gotta understand it was for you not me

No matter what i'm still your same mommy

After I tell you take a breathe thats deep

and don't do anything you'd regret

I know you might wany to kill him too but you must hold back

I was doing my best to protect you wither right or wrong"

that's when I found out,

that my best friend raped my mom.