Time For Change Rap

Time For Change Rap

The things I've done

Made me into what I've become

Tried to run

Tried to escape

All the mistakes that I made

Help me save myself

From the beast called Rage inside the cage

Feeling only hate

No happiness

Just sadness

Complete madness

Trauma plaguing my heart

Talking about change

Where do I start?

Maybe in my head with the demons screaming

Laying on my bed staring at the ceiling

Got that funny feeling

In the pit of my stomach

I thank God for saving my soul

Helped me regain control

Of the emotions swirling with only one goal

Seek and destroy

Stuffing all the fury

Makes me weary

Makes me dreary

I pray for those who are near me

Like a volcano I feel like I'm gonna blow

So many entities fighting for my body

Dominating my actions

Causing negative reactions

Fury and Rage

Anger and Hate

Telling myself to get it together before it's too late

Accept the responsibility of what I did to my family

Always creating calamity

So sorry for hurting ya'll and being a bother

Well that's because they took me from my father

Going through so much everyday I feel like I'm drowning

Head and heart is pounding

The voices getting louder

Getting down on my knees to pray

Lord Almighty forgive me for my sins today

There ain't no way

I'm giving up

I'm now fed up

All this negativity is fueling me

Time for some positivity

Fuck all of ya'll who said I couldn't do

What I intended to

Write songs and write lyrics

Spit rhymes like Shakespearean

Now this is the part where I get down to the nitty gritty

Yeah nigga it's a pity

Fuck all ya'll dream killers

Need a air filter for you bitches emitting poisonous gases

Gas mask distributing by the masses

Criticism with your narcissism

To hate on me and call me lame

Just to tell you we ain't different

We the same

If you got half a brain

You'll feel my pain

See the sunshine, all I see is rain

Call this insanity, you got to be shitting me

I'm the one with the mental illness

Making me pissed

Whenever I'm dissed

Being disrespectful to me I demand my respect respectfully

Better notice who you messing with

Especially to those fake friends

Mad at me come on please

Ain't nobody got time for that

None of that bullshit

None of that crap

Get back while I snap on my snapback

Plug in my headset music blaring

Cause I ain't caring

Censor the swearing

Might be scattered

Does it even matter?

I know I'm madder than a Mad Hatter

Tea party with the March Hare

I told you I was completely out of my mind

Some advice life ain't fair

Karma's a bitch

Running out of time

To take back what is mine

Freedom and liberation

Something I hope to obtain

Got optimism and motivation

Waiting all these years for things to go right

This is my speech, this is my message

Been going through Hell yeah my life is hectic

Thinking of suicide thanks to depression

Increases my aggression

On meds to oppress the feeling of hopelessness

Slipping through the dark abyss called helplessness

Falling on my knees and crying

Inside I'm emotionally dying

If I ever told you I was fine I was lying

Companionship is what I need

To keep me

Sane and not out of my fucking brain

It haunts me

Everytime I hear the whistle from the train

Dream I'm running from it till splat

Goodbye with the tip of my hat

Smashed and bashed like mashed potatoes

Blood running like a battered tomato

Staying alive by laying low

Survive till Big G says let's go

Shutting my mouth and saying no more

Sphinx leaving the building and out the door