You Don't Know

~Bitch, you better quit complain'in!~

 

You don't know what it's like to wanna die every day,

But suicide makes you afraid-

So you stay the same.

Oh, no. You don't know what it's like to wanna die every day,

But suicide makes you afraid-

So you live life in infinite pain.

 

Sick of living life this way,

What I've already said is what I have to say.

The same plans that end in the same mistakes,

It's a cycle that's stuck on replay.

I know I'm evil, but this is a lot to pay.

I fall into my old ways,

I'm- yet again, starting to relate to the blur and the grey.

I'm too stubborn, I never pray- I guess I'm a stray-

But Never a run-away!

 

You don't know what it's like to wanna die every day,

But suicide makes you afraid-

So you stay the same.

Oh, no. You don't know what it's like to wanna die every day,

But suicide makes you afraid-

So you live life in infinite pain.

 

I'm sick of feeling the same-

I feel like I'm stuck in the same place,

The same battles for me to face-

And I'm getting fucking nowhere.

Determination like this is rare.

I don't have anything to spare,

But I have plenty to share.

I feel like I scare the people that know I truly care.

The work I put in compared-

To what I get out of it- it doesn't seam fair.

 

You don't know what it's like to wanna die every day,

But suicide makes you afraid-

So you stay the same.

Oh, no. You don't know what it's like to wanna die every day,

But suicide makes you afraid-

So you live life in infinite pain.

 

I've been holding all of this in,

For a hella' long time.

My screams are starting to echo- yeah, they also rhyme.

Inside my head- I've never been right.

I like to fill them with fright,

Than show them it's all alright.

I scream, I cry, I plead for you to end my life-

But deep down inside I want to try,

I don't want to die, honestly-

I want to be everything I dream to be.

 

You don't know what it's like to wanna die every day,

But suicide makes you afraid-

So you stay the same.

Oh, no. You don't know what it's like to wanna die every day,

But suicide makes you afraid-

So you live life in infinite pain.

 

I want to live inside my dreams,

But that would be way too easy!

I want to live inside my dreams,

But that wouldn't teach me a damn thing!

I yell and than I sing,

My mind is a loaded spring,

But my mouth won't do a damn thing.

The words and the thoughts pulse and sting,

But if you gave me the permission and put me in the ring-

You doubtful bastards wouldn't be laughing.

I would let it all out and you would be in last place,

I'm sick of running in a pace.

I'll leave my old life far behind without a trace.

 

I want to live inside my dreams,

But somehow the pain fuels me.

I want to live inside my dreams,

I guess I don't even know me.