Growing up

Let's take it back to the days when life was so simple,

Wasn't interested in girls, wasn't picking up the signals,

Just cared about chasing my buddies around the playground,

Getting in by dark and listening to the sound,

Of spongebob on the TV, man I was so happy,

I had a good childhood with some dope friends and family,

 

But as I started getting older, my fire began to smoulder,

Now all of a sudden everyone is giving me the cold shoulder,

The recognition of my new found inhibitions,

Made me want to hide, all the feelings I have inside,

Used to be confident but now I feel like I wanna cry,

Too shy to even start a decent conversation,

Now im stuck in a state of mental consternation,

Need emancipation from this unwanted transformation,

Want to go back to the days when I really didn't give a fuck,

Now i'm snorting phenibut to make me more sociable,

I'm sorry I didn't mean to get this emotional,

But i've had a gutsful of being so unapproachable,

 

I'm a friendly soul, I just can't put my finger on it,

I think of the what ifs, I can't deal with the consequences

It really is painful that I feel so defenceless,

Surprised that by now i'm not drinking myself senseless,

To compensate for my evident lack of social skills,

But i've got good mates and I haven't started popping pills,

Even if it kills me, i'm gonna start thinking more clearly,

Can't be living life too afraid to let anyone near me,

Had a girl once but that didn't exactly go to plan,

She gave me confidence then took it away with the other hand,

So many things in life that I don't quite understand,

Like why do I even want to be somebody else's man?

Used to be a time when I was happy kicking it solo,

Nowadays if you don't have a girl, then you're homo

 

I need to rewind in slow mo and figure out my mistakes,

Need to keep on evolving, I can't stay in the same place,

Mace my enemies until they're gone without a trace,

Figure out what's important and what doesn't matter,

Get my head in a good place so my life doesn't shatter,

Into smithereens before i've realised my dreams,

I think i'll scream if shit doesn't get any better,

I'm fed up of my eyes just getting wetter,

Need to turn a corner before there's nowhere left to turn,

Flew too close to the sun now my wings are starting to burn,

 

But life is progressive, there's always more to learn,

And the beauty is that i'll never know everything,

When life stings you just gotta shake it off like it's nothing,

No good wasting time feeling depressed and suffering,

Grab life by the balls because it passes too fast,

Life's too precious to be dwelling on the past,

Live everyday to the max because it could be your last,

Tomorrow's another day another opportunity,

Brace yourself because you haven't even seen the best of me.