Forever Love
• Written by HazeZ
I wish I knew what forever love felt like
All my friends got girls they'll wife
I'm just here wasting my time
Thinking about you I'm wasting my life
Keep tellin myself that it'll be fine
Guess my soulmate will never be mine
Sick of writing the same rhymes
About the same person
I need some new lines
My feelings need a conversion
I'm so lost and uncertain
What was I to you?
Just another step to climb
You made it up the latter
If you still love me give me a fuckin sign
Message me back fuckin reply
Thinking of you is my favorite pasttime
Now its past time due for me to prove
To you that all I do is just for you
Just for you to never come back
I never meant shit did I?
At least you treat me like that
I wish I knew what forever felt like
I wish I could turn back time
Wish I could just go back
Rewrite history make you still be here with me
But I guess its just not that easy
Life is not a movie, I can't hit rewind
I let you get the best of me
Like I do all the fuckin time
My mental state is on a major decline
Pretty close to insanity, fuckin borderline
Drinkin all this moonshine and redwine
Trying to forget your name
But all I can forget its mine
I'm lookin for a lifeline
Before I pop off some shit and go Columbine
If I could I would kill myself twice
Hating myself is what I specialize
In, I'm so wrapped up in this sin
If I make it to heaven
God's gonna be like "Bitch where you been"
He hasn't heard from me in so long
Probably thinks my soul is lost
Lost cause, lost it all in the back of a cop car
In a jail cell not even a month after she left
Quit talkin to me because of that shit I kept
Should have told her but I kept it to myself
Now my hearts gettin dusty on a shelf
Never to be picked up again
Won't even try to be friends
I've tried a thousand times
At least now she can actually reply sometimes
Once in a blue moon I'll hear from you
I feel like I miss you sometimes I feel you do too
Sorry I keep botherin you
I just needed to hear your voice again
I saved all our conversations
Lost the ones from the beginning
But since then your voice has been on replay
When I go to sleep I just pray
For you, only you
You're all I want
All I need and without you what do I do?
Get high all the time tryin to forget you
But everytime I see you I fall more in love
Then shatter like glass cause my loves not enough
To get you back, should have never treated you like that
But I make poor decisions
Cause I couldn't deal with the distance
That was being put in between us
But fuck it shit happens
I can't fix the past I can only improve my present
I wanna be the last thing you think about
But I rank about seventh
In your mind I'm nothing
But in my mind you're everything
The air that I breathe
The thoughts that I see
The dreams that I dream
I'm just so consumed by you
And you don't even see
Guess you're better off without me
I just hope whoever you get makes you happy
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HazeZ
Member since April 17 2015