Lost but never found Ft. BRaps

 

You can hear me cry, every night.

I want to hide, i want to fight, bite, but i can't, even if i tried.

I hurt others by accident, it breaks my heart.

I used to be like a rock, not caring. But now, its so hard.

Let me die, and you'll be happy. My death, it could come in handy.

I want to help others, whatever the cost. But no one helps me, i'm sick of it all.

I'm confused, crazy, bossed around.

I've been lost, but never found.

 

Lately I've been down trying to pick myself up

But fuck, I'll drown and suffocate in my own blood

Feel like the world's against me, wish my eyes would shut

For ever, tired of never be able to have what I wish for

I can't keep fighting anymore, death opens the door

and I'm there greeting it lying on the floor

Life's a whore and fucked me over

That's why I was never sober

I just needed another dose, another high

So I couldn't feel the downside of my life

I'll slit my wrists if someone hands me a knife

I spit shit true and I know it may not be nice

But don't criticise me this ain't no paradise

Life was a sacrifice so come on hand me that knife

I can't bear it anymore I'm ready

I'm not scared anymore now I'll be happy

 

You can hear me cry, every night.

I want to hide, i want to fight, bite, but i can't, even if i tried.

I hurt others by accident, it breaks my heart.

I used to be like a rock, not caring. But now, its so hard.

Let me die, and you'll be happy. My death, it could come in handy.

I want to help others, whatever the cost. But no one helps me, i'm sick of it all.

I'm confused, crazy, bossed around.

I've been lost, but never found.

 

I am lost in my pain, miserably, feeling the misery.

The pain comes down like rain, on the pavement.

I'm stuck to the chains, of my pain, its enslavement.

I could've known, i've been here before.

I am lost. My body feels cold. Frost.

I feel lost, i'm being tossed, away, yet i can't sustain my pain.

Confused, used. Putting my heart and soul in these lines,

they don't need to rhyme, all the time. Its fine. Its a lie.

I feel horrible, disproportional, controllable, overemotional.

If you don't get why i'm so pissed, understand THIS:

I'm an artist and i'm sensitive about my shit!

I'm not alone, but that's exactly what i want.

The feeling is unknowingly known, the feeling haunts.

The mind is the source of the thoughts, the voice talks.

The cuts and the burns, are a clear sign.

That everything IS NOT FINE.

 

You can hear me cry, every night.

I want to hide, i want to fight, bite, but i can't, even if i tried.

I hurt others by accident, it breaks my heart.

I used to be like a rock, not caring. But now, its so hard.

Let me die, and you'll be happy. My death, it could come in handy.

I want to help others, whatever the cost. But no one helps me, i'm sick of it all.

I'm confused, crazy, bossed around.

I've been lost, but never found.

 

I'll be happy as soon as I'm gone

At least I believe in so, I may be wrong

I've waited too long I'm no longer strong

Death is what I deserve and where I belong

For my whole life I mostly felt sad and anger

I'm a piece of a shit, it's bad and I'll tell her

goodbye... and when I'm gone sing a lullaby

Life was a dream that I passed by

My whole life screamed " DIE DIE DIE

Fucking asshole why were you ever born?"

Life's a field full of thorns

a stage on where I've never performed

I couldn't bear the storm

"God why was I ever born?"

Born to die no sense in that

nonsense life I hope to be better in death

 

You can hear me cry, every night.

I want to hide, i want to fight, bite, but i can't, even if i tried.

I hurt others by accident, it breaks my heart.

I used to be like a rock, not caring. But now, its so hard.

Let me die, and you'll be happy. My death, it could come in handy.

I want to help others, whatever the cost. But no one helps me, i'm sick of it all.

I'm confused, crazy, bossed around.

I've been lost, but never found.

 

I might not express my feelings, inner beings, human beings.

I'm feeling the dark energy. The darkness inside me.

I feel the misery, miserably, of my insanity, in me, i'm going crazy.

The Darkness is my friend. The light won't defend.

But i'm not pure darkness, that's impossible.

Darkness doesn't exist without light, but if i'm evil, its questionable.

It depends, what is good and evil, in the eyes of a madman?

He could kill without remorse, click-a-clacka bang.

I've been lifted off, and dropped to the ground.

But this wound, won't heal. For real.

My inner light is fading, yet a white light comes closer.

But its too late. Its already over.

I've been claimed by the deepest, darkest thoughts a mind might have.

No happiness alive, just a guy, feeling worthless, like trash.

I'd never thought i'd be so fragile. Stuck to these chackles.

Can't move, even if i wanted. Taunted, every second i'm alive.

I don't think i will survive. Hurting people without trying.

Trying to help, and love, but i'm done trying, i want to start dying.

 

You can hear me cry, every night.

I want to hide, i want to fight, bite, but i can't, even if i tried.

I hurt others by accident, it breaks my heart.

I used to be like a rock, not caring. But now, its so hard.

Let me die, and you'll be happy. My death, it could come in handy.

I want to help others, whatever the cost. But no one helps me, i'm sick of it all.

I'm confused, crazy, bossed around.

I've been lost, but never found.