If only i...

If only i could be happy again

Instead of feeling stuck in a den

I don't even know

Got my feelings stuck in slow mo

I go to school get kicked out

I just want to scream and shout

And if i chat back there is no doubt

ill get in trouble there is no buts or bout

I ask why am i out here in the cold

why are you racist stop acting bold

but he would ignore me

like a whore and

stuff my feelings in a boar and

Do heaps of shit that makes me punch my jaw in

That is why i hate school at the moment

Teachers kicking you out and they think you think you know it...

All...

i just want to be left in the dark

Nothing to spare, not even a spark.

Now im here writing

bout my thoughts and ima keep fighting

sometimes i have bad thoughts

it feels like my brain rots

i want one of the teachers to grab a knife

and put their wrist in risks of strife

But nah, that shit too deep

Now i sound like a depressed creep

i wish my position could jump and leap

somewhere greater like in a herd of sheep...

I bet you if i go back to school

One of the teachers will treat me like a fool

use me like a tool

then make my feelings jump

and bump

then drown itself into a pool.

It feels like i wanna fade away

put a blade on me and make me shatter

it wouldn't really matter

as long as I'm not a stray