I am...

(Into)

I am not what I wanna be

My own demon, it's become a part of me

Let me explain.. Just watch and see

I'll show you what it means to be like me.

 

(Verse 1)

Scribbles up the arms, black ink across.

Things like " I am..., " my hope is lost.

Finish the sentence, write somethin' like " hated, "

For me to leave it seems that's the way I'm fated.

I'm faded, lost, I myself am my demon,

A black beacon beamin'

That I'm bein' beaten

Mentally, but with a real reason

Wanna talk about my dark sides? You ain't even seen 'em

Give a little smile, just to hide

What it is that I really feel inside,

You've got no idea what I feel like

" Yeah, I'm fine, " I lied, 'cause my heart has died.

Just a post? This is more than that, at most

I spit from my heart, I let my scars show

I'm speakin' the truth, by my mind I'm attacked,

I know that I've already faded to black

 

(Chorus)

( I am... ) Nothing, not worth a damn

( I am.... ) Hated, ever since my life began

( I'll be... ) Like this forever, 'cause I can't change

( I can't... ) Get out, like I'm locked in a cage

 

(Verse 2)

I hate myself, that's the only reason I need

I got my scars, I've even seen myself bleed

A friend tells me that I can't leave,

But every time he says it, I think " I concede "

" Try again, that's when you will succeed "

But since my first burning thought, I planted the seed

Made it so I wanna be buried,

I never wanna wake up when I fall asleep

I caved, after a long strong streak, I'm weak,

Nothing, hated, a waste, check off all three

I'm a failure. Every word I speak, don't you see

Then again, you don't know me, so I'll let it be

 

(Chorus 2)

( I am... ) A danger to myself, that much I already know

( I am... ) Hateful, depressed, I've got the scars to show

( I'll be... ) Alone, thinking of everything I've been through

( I can't... ) Be a good person, I'm horrible, and dark, too

 

(Verse 3/Bridge)

I give up. I got scars. I've done all I can to cope

But I'm lost in despair, I've been without my hope

Grab life and hold? Fuck it, I'd rather grab the rope

Hang myself, I wanna disappear like smoke

Inside I'm broke, my other side wants to show

The voice inside my head that screams for me to go

" You're fucking worthless! But you don't need me to know "

" You've known it yourself, " it yells " haven't you, though? "

" Why are you alive? You can't keep up with life, you're slow "

From the side, I watch my depression and hatred grow

Can't control myself, my demon makes it so

Then again.. I'm my demon, so the fault's my own

I'm alone, with a heart of stone no one can condone

At least, that's what it seems, but inside he's a cyclone

Death isn't unknown, because for me it's like home

So take me back, I'm done with this cruel life that I've known.

 

(Outro)

( I am... ) Everything that I mentioned

( I am... ) Self hating, depressed, and for death I'm destined

( I'll be... ) Gone one day, you'll move on the next

( I can't... ) Be helped, I already tried my best