mind phucked

On the outside stand strong like shit don't faze me

Maybe, because it's eatin' me up on the inside daily

Crazy I just keep findin myself in the same damn boat

Lost a float, message in a bottle, murder he wrote

Soaked, I keep feelin' like I'm losin' all of my friends

This shit keeps going on and no one comprehends

Or understands, people gettin' worked up and upset

Still not up yet, apparently I still haven't had enough yet

Shit goes great for a while then it all falls to pieces

I have a thesis, trends up and down more than Nasdaq

How whack, feelin' like we're havin more fights than fun

I just wanna be done, shit really might not have begun

My boys got my back, nope only one of em thats a fact

My girls got my back, nope none of em now, thats whack

I can't relax, lately I'm on edge, just waitin to burst

When worst comes to worst, apparently it's you first

I feel like shit, I can't sleep, I'm hungry but I can't eat

I thought we could, apparently we just can't compete

Dot Dot delete, retreat, I'll be damned if I do repeat

I forget now how it was we all even came to meet

We've had good times, and we've had a few fights

But never would I trade it back for all of the nights

That I spent with you, you, her, him and the crew

Parkin' lot pimpin', partyin', kickin it, or whatever we do

We did, what do they say if it's too good to be true

It probably is, but fuck we just tryna have fun like kids

Well, we're growin' up, next year we'll probably all be gone

Thinkin back reminiscing on how this shit all went wrong

Sing a song, dance, drink, smoke some tree, whatever

Rock bottom, shit can only get better, I'll miss forever

Thinkin' I'm just sayin' all this shit just to be sayin' it?

Nah, theres a message here man, and I'm conveyin' it

So I'm telling you this all right now for your own benefit

Read this slow, at least take away a good 95 percent of it

There's a lotta shit goin' on right now, no ones gonna know

Woah, I tried, so now I'm a sit back and watch the show

Take it like a man, take one for the team like my homie

Apparently you didn't know me, as well as I thought

If you can't have it, it's always somethin' you want

True talk, so if I upset you then yeah I do apologize

But realize, those real eyes, see through those real lies.