Running to nowhere

i was just a youngin

running from all my problems

too scared to face head on so i never tried to solve em

looking for any way to try and take the weight up off em

started smoking ganja then i found them henny bottles

something i shouldnt have got into

honestly i think i meant to

i dont know anymore cause its clouded up my mental

honestly dawg i really fucking miss you

rest in peace cause since you left its been the same issues

 

now ill never be the same

your constantly on my brain

ill forever remain drained and stained of pain

and the rain

the rain it pours

i cant take away the pain wit lyrics and metaphors

you were taken away on feburary one four

i cant see you anymore and i swore id be a better person

thought i could do it but in reality i worsened

 

its almost a year later

nothings gotten greater

im so fucked up over this that i cant even keep my grades up

im trynna stay strong and show yall exactly what im made of

but thats hard when you realize that your the one who changed up

My closest friends done walked out now they all against me

thats why i feel like if i left that nobody would miss me

it hurts cause the ones i loved now all resent me

and now im losing all the feelings that were still left in me

My nigga called it beautiful pain

i read his words but i ignored it cause i cant understand what he sayin

cause there was nothing beautiful about the blood that i bled

or the tears that i shed when i saw my homie was dead

or the example i set for my little cousins and brothers

cause they know soon imma be flying wit the angels above us