Makin' a Change

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Makin' a change,
in my chemistry,
never really did,
seem so hard to me,
 
Makin' a change,
in my wasted mind,
While I Always seem,
to run out of time
 
Suicide never did seem like a reasonable option to me
But I learned the hard way what reasonable options could be
No reason to keep living on a broke rockstar's weekly keep
When I've got no skills to show and I'm over my head way in too deep
My will to live seems to fade out in counts of threes
But who's going to stop me and try to counter me
My mind and heart and body ready to give out on me
But how can I hurt so bad, even life has started doubtin' me
 
Can you hear the sincerity in the wasted walls of time
When my only method to reach you is my scheming ways of rhyme
I've got one more life, because depression's eight of nine,
And every course of action always seems to cross the fucking line
Why you gotta hate me? I compensate enough for myself
Why can't God just take me? And send my belongings to hell
Why can't I just make me, disappear when I'm so unwell
Why won't no one save me, despite my cries for help
 
Makin' a change,
in my chemistry,
never really did,
seem so hard to me,
 
Makin' a change,
in my wasted mind,
While I Always seem,
to run out of time
 
This song was not easy for me to rap or to write
Nobody talks about how they just aren't alright
Doctors won't cure me now that I'm depersonalized
A prisoner in my own body who's tryna walk to the light
I want to rest easy without my brain tryna fight
I want to meet angels and take my final flight
Grab all this grace of God and fly into the midnight
Or maybe look down below and accept the devil's invite
 
Whatever it may be, I'll take the warp away from Earth
If it saves this mental anguish I've had since fucking birth
Making change seems pointless if no one acknowledges my worth
Just smite me with the darkness and peace that I've begged to deserve
Is it really hopeless? The clock's set back to five
Is it really worth it? Maybe that's why I'm alive
Is it simply hopin' if I'm trying to survive
Are my prayers answered at the conclusion that I arrive?
 
Makin' a change,
in my chemistry,
never really did,
seem so hard to me,
 
Makin' a change,
in my wasted mind,
While I Always seem,
to run out of time
 
Making this change,
is no easy road
Desiring to live
While carrying this load
 
Burdens of soul,
Weighing on my heart
Maybe I just need to
Head back to the start

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