Suicide Note

I'm having suicidal thoughts, I'm borderline psychotic, I'm wondering what to

use, the single or the automatic, I'll Put it to my head and fire gunshots

sporadic, No I don't give a fuck if my death is anti-climatic. Cuz depression

hurts, making me hate this life for all it's worth, Making me wish my mom

didn't give birth, Now I'm crying myself to sleep, 7 days a week, I can't even

leave this rut, no I'm in too deep. I got the trigger to my head, 8 rounds of

lead. Thinking if I should really make myself dead. Choosing to shoot down

the lane or across, works about the same, Damn this bullshit life is driving

me insane! I just wanna end it. No, I don't wanna mend it, One shot, two

shots, how many will it take? Before I awaken, and the motherfucking gates

of hell await. Not all scars show Not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't

always see The pain someone feels! So close your eyes And listen to their

heartbeat As their soul is slowly torn apart! The bitterest tears shed over

graves Are for words left unsaid And deeds left undone… Their souls are now

gone !! A gun in each hand As you hear the teens say I'm done! Another suicide

As this world loses its pride With broken hearts and dead souls We lose sight

of our goals and dreams Can you hear the screams? Taken by the fear of

desolation I stay awake… Throughout sounds of despair Upholding my

attention Why has it all come to this? This life has not finished. Help me…

A simple man without needs I have not lost my will to breathe. This cannot

betray the good in me I'm not paying for your beliefs Pain is enough !! I'm not

that strong I'm not that tough! But I continue fighting If I won't stand up Then

who will I won't suffer because of your mistakes But I won't let you fall to the

ground alone Like a dog with a bone I'll continue biting my lips Until the

darkness breaks. I can hear the hearts and souls shake From all the mistakes, The pain surrounding me I begin to go insane!!

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! I'm just one man with no money in my hand And this

life left to live Can't sleep at night Because of the screams of agony and

despair This world has become a nightmare.

God if you're truly there Show us the light And end this pain and suffering!

By the sense of being here!! Pain starting from your eyes Have we made a

promise ?? Strained too far this lie… The trust has been broken again. And

this path will never lead Past the nightmare Straight towards my grave. Not

another fucking forfeit.... Are you telling me to forget?? The rising hate left to

fear I won't be buried in here !! It gets harder and harder to breathe As the

words begin to choke me And I can barely see. My vision blurred And the

screams can still be heard Miles away… I can feel my heart collapsing on me

Chose a bad day to continue living If only I gave up yesterday I wouldn't be

in this mess today. Hand me the gun cuz baby tonight I'm done! Call me a

coward But this is the last night. I'll run and hide I'll end here Don't shed a

single tear. Hope you're the happy cause. My life constant Thanks to the

struggle in which you placed me... A test of wills For my weakness to be

displayed. Why do you smile at my pain? Fuckin’ ignore the last question…

why must you destroy?