Teens

Everyday is a struggle and test of my depression

Every night that I make it through is a motherfucking blessing

Cause I'm stressing over little things like a typical freshman

The teenage specimen obsessing over messes

These tests about what's precious is Gods way of oppressing

And messing with our brains interesting us in depressants

That seem like presents and good investments in these seconds of breathless

Crying and dying inside during every health lesson

They relayed this message but did you really listen

Medicine abuse in the bathroom inhalant sniffing in the kitchen

Smoke liftin from spliffs smoked straight choked from your symptoms

Of binge drinking wrists slit dripping blood and your sittin and wishin

You didn't wanna bleed but you need alcohol and some weed

To guarantee that you're pain free even though your brain pleas

To please give up using but what you're doing just seems to complete your peace

Until you drink bleach and can't breathe weak at your knees od on the streets

 

You gotta fight off every thought every plot you have

You gotta stop and laugh in this time you got while it lasts

Cause it can't be bought or brought back once it's trashed

So cash it all in before you stop and crash

Before you fall back into the black spots of your past

Reach and grab and build steps not out of blocks but plaques

Block out the smack and snap back into rocking rap

Shocking that you stopped and fought back from that

Emotions stowing and then blowing up like a boiling explosion

Showing the world you are golden and growing out of proportion

Knowing you're rhythm is flowing like water into the ocean

Boating glowing and keep going through the night to the morning

Yo thing is what you're holding onto to blow off these cocks

Old doors are closin opening new cause opportunity knocked

Giving you a shot not to drop off of the top

But you never lost or forgot the spots you had to stop

You gotta keep swinging and missing cause soon you'll start hitting

Stop thinking and wishing about inflicting self killing

Reminiscing on nights not stoppin poppin penicillin

Willing yourself to gin and women sinning like no one's business

Is it the drinking or shit that keeps you stuck in this web you're spinning

The things you're spitting that intimately describe how you're feeling

Things other kids are dealing with saying you're the realist and illest

Cold hearted like I'm the chillest chills down you're spine every minute

Scared cause feelings are bringing and ripping the worst out of your spirit

You can hear it in my music suicide vibes is my wicked twisted

Side, but my music will keep ringing even if I'm not living

While I'm bleeding but still breathing you can bet I'll keep singing

 

People fucked me over used me and abused me

Proved me the fool numerously for all the times they fooled me

Foolish truly and spooky that I was brutally hurt by cruelty

And it's duly my fault everything was in front of me like a movie

People told me with advice I was acting like a newbie

I would lose sleep and refuse to eat because I wanted to choose a new street

I was moving away from life and more towards making the cover of Newsweek

For committing suicide I was usually strong but I grew weak

Loosely held together by riches to me not rubies

But drinks not fruity smoothies but shit that makes me woozy

And loony, loopy goofy but still profusely blew steam through the

Energy in my music like I do speed but no I do weed

Straight stupid, clueless the shit I been through to do this

Tribute piece of music to teens going through shit

So we can fight together show we proved it made it through it

Start a movement against parents think were lunatics and losing

And doing crap they think will ruin our chances of moving

Through life as a human but all I want is to pursue a career in music

Make a record kids can put on and vibe to it, just lose it

This life I didn't choose it but douches through me into ruins

Emotionally I became uncontrollably weak totally

Meek knowingly showing my feelings like poetry on this beat

Locally seen as a geek not socially showing how hopelessly

I was floating in this bleach so speak vocally at the beep