I tried so hard
• Written by ShayRiot
I tried so hard to get over you
The voice that said it´s over knew
That what you said wasn´t rude
It was just so goddamn true
I need you more than you me
See all the we´re here, the too sweet
But nothing fills the gap
It kills me that
My clinginess destroyed it all
I´m paranoid and sore
I tried to avoid the war
But they attacked my exploided core
I know this battles would´ve be gone
If I wouldn´t have did what I´ve done
I wasn´t grown up enough
My head was blown up by stuff
That became even worse without you
But that is no excuse to drown you
That´s no excuse to didn´t man up when I should
That´s no excuse to didn´t plan much then I would
I knew how they would treat you at that funeral
I let them defeat you with what they thought was suitable
Feeling helpless was so hellish
It made me headless, made me selfish
Made me loose my self what made me loose you
I don´t need to do more to prove to
Everyone I fuck up everything
The degree is varying
But the result is always same
I was always lame
I was always drained
By self-pity
Low self-esteem
I´m to damaged to be shelter
That´s why there were a few welcomes
And many goodbyes
Maybe I should die
But would I?
No because I take responsibility
Even if it´s killing me
Til nothing is fulfilling me
So take my hand
I will do what I can
To be not a boy but a man
Honestly I planned
These last lines so long
How could I end this song?
But nothing´s enough true
Then I love you
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ShayRiot
Member since October 3 2015