Broken Inside

Woke up this morning and looked in the mirror

Everything morbid, foggy image no clearer

Thought about you yesterday wished you were nearer

So sick of crying and i don't know who I'm crying for

If today was my last day I'm not sure who I'd be dying for

Since you rejected been trying to put up a fort

but i cant afford to lie no more

So i write my wrongs in these song

Breaks my heart it feels already broken

I'm jumping out of every life boat into every ocean

Cause I don't feel warm in the boat

And i cant feel safe on the coast

And the ocean holds promise

That one day it won't be freezing cold

I'm choking on this life I'm losing my hold

 

They said I couldnt miss what I never had

Well I did

They said it wouldnt be that bad

Well it is

 

I had it in the bag

I chocked I let it back

To were I used to be

reminiscing and dissing

To forget that Im missing

You in every picture I see

And everything that I breathe

Reminds me

That there will be no memories

Of what never could be

Cause you never even left me

You just said no

Left me to never glow

An ever going never knowing

Were Im going next

Cause I dont know whats up for me on this quest

 

 

Dont worry about me

Im here in my dreams

No one hears my screams

No one cares it seems

Shut the door to everyone else

Cause it aint worth the hell

Of their hate that comes with my confidence

Coinciding with me trying not caring if I'm conscience

So i sit here dreaming

I'm scheming and screaming

Not sure whats real and whats in my head

Not sure if I want here or I want dead

I sit here and feel the pain

I hear the demons in my brain

And now you write me off as insane