Reflection

Yeah,[:38] one morning woke up to my parents fightin,

I dont know why but all i knew is i was frightened.

Was it something I did or was it something I said?

I just dont know cause all those thoughts were racing through my head, now. (50 sec)

A white boy in a white neighbourhood

like people expect that life's supposed to be good.

but what they were lookin at is what lies on the surface,

but deep down inside was where the troubles stirred and formed fists,

to knock me down when I thought that I could handle life,

I knew I had to stay strong to make it through the strife. [1:05]

I was fourteen when I found a girl I liked,

we hit it off and together we could make it right.

i found out that she was having troubles of her own,

lonely life a woman coming from a broken home.

One day I saw some red that made my stomach twist,

Looked down at her arm and saw a slit wrist.

Not wanting her to feel alone

I took the plunge, and put the silver razor to my own. [1:25]

That one action put me on the route to depression,

tried to take my life twice guess i was pressin,

the emotions of the people that - i - loved,

wasnt looking for any help from above.

This was an issue that I had to solve on my own,

if i couldnt, had my thoughts on a headstone (1:40) [ayyy play on words]

A lonely stoner self medicating, not sober,

No healing done, that girl and I well we were over.

shit, i was back to being alone, nobody to phone,

when crazy irrational thoughts started to roam. [1:51]

Ya know I figured I would think it through,

but sometimes in life the healing just goes straight to you.

All of a sudden the depression had lifted,

I thought i was gifted with the new life i was given. [2:00]

However some things are not always what they seem,

That new life was just the start of a long dream.

That even now as i write this twenty-two years young,

I look around and see that spring has never really sprung. [2:10]

I guess I gotta live with the life that I've created,

Sometimes i feel like the lives we live are all fated, [2:16]

Struggles with adversity seems a human born condition, [go slower starting here]

So please i really hope that your ears and mind have listened,

To the truths that come from my heart and brain,

Like Logic said if you drink to avoid the hurt well we call that champagne.

(reference to 44 Bars)