17 Yearz

So I woke up this morning feeling like crying

Lookin' back at my life and saw it as a diary

 

Knowin' of all the bad I'd done I knew I was

A shitty asshole not thinkin straight I need a pause

 

So I decided to write what I thought

The fights, height, sights, nights, brothers beside. I tried.

 

I never knew that in 17 Yearz I'd shed 17 Tears

I never knew that in 17 Yearz I'd pray 17 Prayers

I never knew that in 17 Yearz I'd face 17 Fears

 

I never knew I'd loose my family before the age of eighteen

Loosing all that I love most while I was still a teen

And all that I've seen can be paralelled to halloween

But fucking shit I still got my queen

And my story may seem obscene

But hold onto your seats while I take you through this dream

A story of a boy not only looking for cream

A story of a boy looking to be redeemed

 

Waking up alone looking through my soul

Trying desperately to gain some control

Not ever knowing what was my role

 

Looking for it, knowing I was lost

Seemed fair knowing what I had caused

Knowing it was all on my own cost

 

10 Tear was shed for my brothers lost

7 Tear was shed to my life I tossed

 

12 Prayers prayed for my family so fucked

2 Prayers prayed for the shit I had to conduct

3 Prayers prayed for all the deaths I had to confront

 

10 Fears faced for the death I escaped

2 Fears faced by confronting the misplaced hate

5 Fears faced knowing I'd never lose my mate