a look inside a rappers mind

Fuck your generosity I'm a degenerate junkie

Separated from society in seclusion like a monk be

a monkey at the zoo behind bars too old to care

Not worth a piss or a penny never learned the word share

I see it i want it transfixed by violence like Necro's violins

Out for myself there's no joining forces ...never an alliance

No compliance fuck off middle finger met with only silence

Trigger finger about to fire adrenaline pumps intensity heightens

Crystal addict following amphetamines under meth's guidance

In the guise of a demon dressed up as drugs....real science

hypothesize ...chart observations then come to a conclusion

Lie to lies I start to observe variations so dumb it's amusing

Must be confusing a con few choose to bring around

Trust me..I'm just a con using morphine fueling a frown

Why smile ...fuck portraying something I've only seen

Hostile....get stuck for praying Rude.. loud and Obscene

Apostle of the destitute pictures painted capture the scene

Never reached a goal...in Pristine condition are my dreams

Spent most of my life locked up high or on trial

Bent....toast to my life chalked up ready to Die...survival

Strategic submission even these ramblings suicidal

Black magic attrition grieving darkness i spit the truest style

Mild are suspicions unmatched Is the severity of denial

Wild are such decisions detached delivery.. evil and vile

 

Either Rival retaliation or revel in revenge

Unraveling of hope choked. under the spell of the Devils syringe

another binge another addict another another dealer another whore

another junkie dead...as i hang my head ashamed that i want more

 

 

Fixed for a coffin suited up shaved face and head

Mixed too many drugs in pursuit of the high might surface dead

Instead of the easy route walking the straight and narrow

Tread water taunting fate or pop off like an army of Pharaohs

Or a couple in love dodging a valentines day arrow

The scarecrow of hip hop all you birds small time like sparrow

Is it fair. .no???whoever told you that life was...had an agenda

could tell you many stories but what I hear is all propaganda

I demand answers conveniently drugs ask all the questions

Fill out this quick survey an addicts box full of suggestions

Suggestive hypnotism nice ass cheeks bouncing in succession

Successive euthanism The mystique of drug seduction

Seduced by the lifestyle flip some packs in between fucking

But without any money or dope it's the dealer you'll be ducking

Destruction of morals simplest things met with neglect

Destruction of more..less value put on pride and respect

Deduction of a whore tricks minus John's equals lunch

Better yet a flap to help get by or at least over the hunch

Crunch time like players warming up at NFL combines

Or those diving from bullets such as students in Columbine

Enough I'm amped up crank the music what's the crime

Bluff...no matter the cards in my hand... bet every time

Mind your manners my mind is gone couldn't manage

challengers left in critical condition wrapped up and bandaged

 

Either Rival retaliation or revel in revenge

Unraveling of hope choked. under the spell of the Devils syringe

another binge another addict another another dealer another whore

another junkie dead...as i hang my head ashamed that i want more