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Look, grew up living life in the worst way

ever since my first birthday as far as i can remember

but its so long ago and blurry but i know its at the center

of all the problems of this depressed kid of this

oppressed gift, i cant lift spirits if i cant lift my own,

so i gotta quit the guilt trippin, to be truthful, at this point

i dont even know who im missing, lost too many family and friends

life got tough at early age for me, perspective taught me my life lessons,

thinking its a blessing to be alive as i take a step outside

woke up in a happy mood, but now im feelin pissed and rude, no reason

just me, a different person at points if i ain't where i should be mentally

i really wonder what traumatized me more, but no time to explore that

i dont wanna rip lives apart i recently glued back together, a real

life feels so out of range so i speak out in anger, no fear give me my gear

let me ride out i aint hidin out, no fucks left give and i fear thats the

man who spoke the most fly shit yall haters fake fucked with

over 200 pounds with the timbs on, wit my mac eleven, got my bread and

im coming for ya head, who shot ya ha, isnt it fucked up now

how can i do that i believe he resides inside me, some shit he spit

defines me, at times grimy, but all i see now is the light and my reason

why, people always passing by through my life all the time, its like a

flick they there for the moment then click they gone, adam sandler

the family's gone, thats why the movie hit so home wit me, fuck am i saying

i say that a lot cause why i write i truly dont understand its unplanned

but my mind demands that become the version i see of myself being the man

hate on everything, knock me down a million times, ill get back up a billion

times, cause tomorrow is a new a day

and i hope and pray it'll work out some day

but until then, i swear imma stay high, kiss the ground goodbye,

give up? nah.

not for me, so on cue you better screw, what i ever do to you

if there's a problem i wont hesitate see blood spill,

get me angry, gon' fire up the grill, bet you cant cause im too

chill, while im still going downhill yall peoples up there who hate

gonna get upset when im a threat, i suggest you calm down,

you aint a variable, i disregard ya words dont carry you on mind

like clown would do, i bury my head in work like i can't afford a fucking shoe

but that aint nothing new, when you hit rock bottom ya name is forgotten

turned rotten but pardon the kid who got em, all eyes on me when i aint lookin

but i still see, cause my all seeing eyes open, no hook cause i just flow

like a river of life though breaks anything it comes in contact to,

its a matter of persistence, ill get through, in due time imma get to

what i need the most, not fame, nor noriety, its funny when you really came up

from nothing, then worked hard towards something, but now everything is

changin i can feel it, gemini with plenty eyes for emotions i can't conceal it,

catch the drift or is that too slick, i can be quick witted, or the last

blocked digits, redial again again again again again, no answer

i pick up a pad and pen, writing shit down just so i can vent,

except to my depressed expense, i couldnt write my feelings

so here deal with the philosophy of the jerk off i'll turn out to be

unless i can turn the tables my way and make out okay

nature in the rain on a sunny day, love mother earth

love ya self, reach out if you need the help, dont say ill help myself

thats a lie i can tell, but to you i can sell myself as a mogul of some industry

talk my way into anything so slippery, so may the real

depressed shady stand up, oh i forgot to mention slim cause i dont eat a lot

at times i sleep for what seems like a decade but still wake up tired im sick

of this my lines aint gottta rhyme for me to spit how im living in a bowl

of shit, tryna mix up it bit, but no ones down to step foot it in,

loneliness killed the nice guy who learned from a girl he iced

too many times, applied those lessons to my life my karma is reversed

thats right, i pick up for it when i can, and

try to remain a happy man

try to remain a happy man