Hyper Nova - I Tried

Look, I've taken what was given and did the best i can

Considering the circumstances it was a decent attempt

But I've already given in, my fingers can't even clutch the pen again

I've done some horrible things and tried to make amends

Learned some valuable knowledge and what it meant to be a human being

Turned my nihilistic tendencies into productive fantasies

Expressed musically through rhythm and poetry

Poured my heart and soul out onto these online beats

Thinking yeah maybe this will be what delivers me

From the monotony that imprisons me within the 21st century

But on my fith year anniversary of writing this here poetry

I realized that i was still where i started, haven't moved an inch

And i'm sitting here thinking this doesn't make any god damn sense

My problem is i can never socialize for any length of time

And i lack the direction so I've yet to put my car in drive

I just sit on the side of the highway, watching all these cars drive away

I'm sitting here raping my brain, trying to find the correct words to say

To express my current mental state, but there are none

I'm not saying that my desire for chasing music is done

I'm just saying i don't know if this will ever pay off

Life in general is a lost cause and i'm a lonely rebel on a mission he forgot

Looking in vain for a way to participate in society while keeping a healthy mental state

But i'm staring off into space too much to be productive

And i lack the capacity to preform basic mental functions

So i guess while everyone else around me hit the ground running

I tumbled and rolled off track into a ditch, and laid there ever since

Watching the next line of runners pass by, but i'm too busy watching the stars in the sky

I know if i don't move soon ill probably die

And if i do, well, nobody better fucking cry

Because etched on the tombstone will be my last alibi

In big bold letters will be two words: I Tried.

 

And i did, or at least i wanted to

But i couldn't make it outside of my head long enough to pull through

And i did, or at least i wanted to

But i couldn't make it outside of my head long enough to pull through