I wish

Why don't other people seem to care as much as I do?

I would love to show my feelings but I'm afraid my memories are sneaking

up behind me. The demons in my mind, They are fucking trying to find me

 

I tell myself. "it's just because you're not normal"

But how do I stop, It's the source of my hurt.

I need help. But I've got no friends to give it to me.

Any thoughts of a second chance. Life's just gonna rip it from me.

 

I try, I try so hard to make everyone understand that I'm trying.

But on the inside. I feel like I'm fucking dying.

How many times, The laughter and the jokes. All the fucking lying.

I wish they would notice that it was the fake me they were buying.

 

But nobody realizes. I was the class clown.

But for everyone I wear a classed frown.

I wish I could make their life's better.

I can't care for my own, It's already weathered.

 

My heart, It's constantly being severed.

Why when I try can I never try hard enough.

Shit, I'm trying to make people have it less rough.

Nobody knows. Nobody knows I'm less tough.

 

There was a sweet person I my life. And just to keep them alive it was my

well being I sacrificed. All that matters to me is that she's alive.

She's gone now. I'm probably forgotten, I'm hoping she's getting on now.

I did my best when she left me to make my soul rotten.